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dissolved_girl

dissolved_girl

i'll be gone soon.
Mar 16, 2025
16
"even if you disappear, your pain will not fully disappear - it will just transfer into the people who love you." this is the exact part that makes me feel trapped. but i can't live. i can't. i actually can't keep going. i can't handle exams, job interviews, driving tests with an infinite ache in my chest. i don't know if i should kill myself far, far away from here, or in my own bedroom. i know it'll cause my family equal pain. ughhh can just anyone take this pain out of meeee. fuck. i think this is the worst i've ever felt. like ever ever. the ache has never felt as strong as the ache in this exact moment. it hurts so much i think i'm going to stop breathing at any moment. (i guess this could be taken out of context but i'm 18, still living with my family)
 
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cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

Warlock
Mar 15, 2025
732
18 is a very tough age. My kids went through hard times, although I'm not sure they shared with me exactly what they were going through. I didn't share with my parents either. I can relate to feeling trapped like how you mentioned.
 
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CloudChaser

CloudChaser

I Breathe So I Must Be Alive
May 20, 2025
16
It hurts to see you in pain. I hope you soon will get better and less pain. Try some benzo's. They will calm you down.
All the best.
 
bankai

bankai

Visionary
Mar 16, 2025
2,099
I'm sorry, I understand. I hope you feel better.
 

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