Playing With Fate

[SillyGirl>_<]

I am curious if I am alone on this or not. But I've been playing with my fate for a while now. For instance when I got my car some nights I would drive as fast as I can on the highway (obv when there were no cars around) and close my eyes. Or more recently loading a gun putting in mouth and playing with the trigger seeing how close I can get without dying. It is a win-win for me if I survive it makes me feel slightly better, or eternal peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

That just sounds like a way to end up with injuries/damage to me, ending up in a situation of way worse suffering is exactly what I'd fear.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

No, I don't. I want to actually be dead so that I can be in peace. I don't want to risk getting permanently injured

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

No, and please don't be fucking around in traffic. For everyone's sake.