toxicwasteofspace
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- Sep 9, 2023
- 6
i'm not a huge user of this site so i'm not sure what is and isn't allowed to say uncensored on here, but this is a follow up to my previous thread (which i know is insanely vague but it's 5am and im tired but i can't sleep because im mentally ill rn)
essentially i technically willl have access to a method that i think very few people survive as soon as i move back to my parents place! i don't think i can really say, but it involves painting the walls with my insides i guess. i just feel like this move was the last straw and last shot i was willing to take. it was supposed to change and fix everurbing and i was supposed to be happy here and free from abuse just to wind up going back to the same abuse that kxlled me and traumatized and scarred me for life, i'll never be the same after my family and childhood just to be sent right back after escaping everyone in a way that costed like $500+, i dismantled and uprooted my whole life for this, threw away half my belongings too, i even brought my cat, andnow my cats going to have to go through that same stress again less than 3 months later because literallynothing goes right for me. no one can handle my mental health, no one knows how to help me, i'm too much, i drain people, and i confuse people, i stress people out , but they can't imagine they stress o am feeling. like if looking at me suffer is stressful for you imagine how i feel being the one suffering. but i hope it all ends soon, i think ill give my cat to my ex girlfriend because is till love her
essentially i technically willl have access to a method that i think very few people survive as soon as i move back to my parents place! i don't think i can really say, but it involves painting the walls with my insides i guess. i just feel like this move was the last straw and last shot i was willing to take. it was supposed to change and fix everurbing and i was supposed to be happy here and free from abuse just to wind up going back to the same abuse that kxlled me and traumatized and scarred me for life, i'll never be the same after my family and childhood just to be sent right back after escaping everyone in a way that costed like $500+, i dismantled and uprooted my whole life for this, threw away half my belongings too, i even brought my cat, andnow my cats going to have to go through that same stress again less than 3 months later because literallynothing goes right for me. no one can handle my mental health, no one knows how to help me, i'm too much, i drain people, and i confuse people, i stress people out , but they can't imagine they stress o am feeling. like if looking at me suffer is stressful for you imagine how i feel being the one suffering. but i hope it all ends soon, i think ill give my cat to my ex girlfriend because is till love her
