Planning suicide long in advance

[olive]

Hey guys!
This is actually my first post here..
I have had severe depression, ptsd and an ed for over 10 years now and I know that it won't ever get better. I've tried everything. And somehow.. I've accepted that my situation won't improve. I don't want to kill myself right now or even in a month or a year (I'm not actively suicidal), but I know for sure that I don't want to get old. I'm talking like anything past 30/35 (I know that's not old, but for me that's already the absolute maximum).

Does anybody else do this? Plan their date of passing long in advance? It kinda helps me make peace with my conditions, because I know that I won't have to suffer forever. Also thinking about financial aspects (I can't work full time, sometimes not even part time), I won't have to worry about not having enough money as I get older. I am, however, scared that I'm going to change my mind (even though it's highly unlikely) and then have to face the mess of my life without being prepared for a future I didn't even want.

Idk.. would you do anything differently in my position?
would be nice to hear some opinions or stories :)

 

[leavingsoon99]

I think planning is the best way to start. It's going through with it that can be tricky. I was kind of talked out of it last time, as a 'friend' played on my fear of failing and gave me some motivational bullshit that I should've seen through. That won't be the case this time. I've taken care of my debt, organized all my medical records, and now just play with house money until my appointed day.

 

[leloyon]

I'm the same. I know I will do it before I turn 30.
I plan to either at the end of the year or sometime next year.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

It doesn't hurt to be prepared is case things become exceedingly worse to the point where you just can't stand being around anymore. Whatever method you choose, having all the necessary supplies around can bring peace of mind should the time come when you need it. They have pills for ED don't they?

 

[MrbearX]

I've been preparing for months now and it's hard to find anything really then I found this forum by chance some very good methods that I've never heard of and stories of what can go wrong and some stories where people never came back on after attempting but always be skeptical do your research outside of this forum also if you can find it and if you end up deciding on a method there's always a chance of failure so you gotta have a back up plan whether to attempt again or how to keep it moving after the fail but with enough info from here and your own research you should be able to decide whats best for you I'm going with the SN method just waiting for it to get here and I'm doing it that night I'm very set on this and been planning it for a while