Story Plan to do SN tonight

[I screwed up]

Guys , its been great interacting with you on SS. Plan to do SN tonight , hope I can overcome my SI ...and dont chicken out. Pl pray I am successful as I can't afford to fail my attempt. Will take meto and maybe antacid.. Not sure. Also will try get benzo if I can in the evening when I step out. Pl pray I succeed

 

[NodusTollens]

Glad to hear SS was good support for you.

Best of luck, hope your journey is peaceful.

 

[I screwed up]

My worry is I cannot fast for 12 hrs .. Coz I live with parents they will be curious and are very alert to all my actions. So I have to do everything as normal. I hope this does not screw up everything .. Although I will take double dose of meto

 

[Sslsh]

Guys , its been great interacting with you on SS. Plan to do SN tonight , hope I can overcome my SI ...and dont chicken out. Pl pray I am successful as I can't afford to fail my attempt. Will take meto and maybe antacid.. Not sure. Also will try get benzo if I can in the evening when I step out. Pl pray I succeed

All the best m8. Which brand SN are you doing to use?

 

[Squiddy]

I wish you peace

 

[NodusTollens]

@Sslsh They'll have to PM you the answer. I don't think we're supposed to be giving details like that.

 

[NodusTollens]

My worry is I cannot fast for 12 hrs .. Coz I live with parents they will be curious and are very alert to all my actions. So I have to do everything as normal. I hope this does not screw up everything .. Although I will take double dose of meto

That's understandable, that part would be challenging. What time are you planning?

 

[I screwed up]

Plan to do it late night around 1:30 am or so , when everyone is asleep and I have good 5 hrs before anyone finds me .. That's the best time I can figure .. No other option

 

[Pen>Sword]

We support whatever choice you make. Just be safe. I will pray for you before I sleep. Goodbye.

 

[NodusTollens]

@I screwed up Would you be able to have an early lunch/brunch & skipping dinner?

 

[I screwed up]

@I screwed up Would you be able to have an early lunch/brunch & skipping dinner?

Will try skip dinner or have it bit early .. But will it be of so much impact ..

 

[MAA Ke pass]

Plan to do it late night around 1:30 am or so , when everyone is asleep and I have good 5 hrs before anyone finds me .. That's the best time I can figure .. No other option

Hope u find peace anything that u want to do. Good luck man

 

[Deleted member 94]

Will try skip dinner or have it bit early .. But will it be of so much impact ..

Yes fasting is necessary for sn method.

 

[NodusTollens]

Will try skip dinner or have it bit early .. But will it be of so much impact ..

According to Stan's guide you don't need to fast for that long if you're doing a stat dose.

Though it may be better to skip dinner, it would give you more time to fast.

 

[MAA Ke pass]

Will try skip dinner or have it bit early .. But will it be of so much impact ..

I messaged u in your pm. Plss rplyy me

 

[I screwed up]

Have replied

 

[Arrow]

i hope that you find what you're looking for, and i wish you the best

 

[I screwed up]

I am feeling very anxious already ... Wonder how the next few hours pass ... Wish I was more calm

 

[aminend]

If u are sure I hope ur attempt be very peaceful and easy. U know every thing about SN so dont worry. Keep us updated as much as possible

 

[sadworld]

I hope everything works out for you. Safe travels! Hugs.

 

[Sherri]

Sorry your life came to this endless pain, whatever you decide I wish you well, and that it's a peaceful journey.

 

[Defenestration]

Heaven <3

 

[sadworld]

Plan to do it late night around 1:30 am or so , when everyone is asleep and I have good 5 hrs before anyone finds me .. That's the best time I can figure .. No other option

I was always afraid to do it at night because if I vomit my parents might hear it and wake up... I hope you've already figured that. Best wishes!

 

[Pookie]

To ctb is not an easy undertaking so if you don't succeed please don't beat yourself up over it. We'll be here to support you. But I wish you the best and that you get the peace that you wish for. Hugs.

 

[StateOfMind]

Good luck and godspeed!

 

[I screwed up]

As the hour ticks by I am very jittery .... I want to do it so bad but am scared I may fail. Don't know what will happen .. I m sitting in my car chain smoking .. Thinking abt wht to do

 

[stygal]

As the hour ticks by I am very jittery .... I want to do it so bad but am scared I may fail. Don't know what will happen .. I m sitting in my car chain smoking .. Thinking abt wht to do

That's the biggest decision of your life - whatever you may choose please be sure and don't rush into anything. From what I read it seems like you know what you are doing and how to prepare everything - so I doubt you would fail if you decided on it.
We're here for some emotional support <3

 

[aminend]

As the hour ticks by I am very jittery .... I want to do it so bad but am scared I may fail. Don't know what will happen .. I m sitting in my car chain smoking .. Thinking abt wht to do

I understand u totally. I've same condition. I know every thing about SN and I've every thing needed. I saw 1 person who killed him self by SN and read many successful CTB cases by SN at news, scientific articles and this forum. But I still fear. I've a date for myself (around 6weeks later). I did what is needed and know what's necessary. At my time I will not think and I will just do that I will surrender to my destiny at that time with out fear

 

[I screwed up]

Well I got alprazolam 0.5 mg. So will pop couple of it with the me to about half hour before I do it. Now I have everything .. Hope I dont chicken out. Not able to fast is my only concern. Dont believe in god .. But god pl help me
I will let u guys know if I chicken out or I succeed in drinking my SN.

 

[kite]

I hope you have a peaceful journey, I'm sorry it has come to this point.