Discussion Plan on Ctb tomorrow night

[William Barker]

You must be hungry after that pointless fasting?

Wolfed down a whole can of Wolf chilli.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

You're very perceptive.

Yeah, I can often roll like that.

 

[russian_roulette]

No matter what you do, I wish you a lot of love and peace!

 

[bpdandme]

I've read this thread from start to finish and it's made me so happy, I'm glad you're still here William Barker. You have a lovely presence and a talent for writing. Everyone is here for you and rooting for you.
I have an degree in English and wish I could write as well as you. Please feel free to PM me if you're ever feeling down! Good luck with your promising future and keep us all updated.

 

[theguineapigking]

I'm very sorry for the pain you've gone through.

As others said, you look good and write good! Try not to ever feel bad about yourself. Especially after everyone on here complimenting you! You seem like a pretty cool guy. I can guarantee the world is better with you in it, and if that I have no doubt. I completely understand suicide, don't get me wrong. But you definitely seem to have some drive to live. It's good that you're reconsidering.


I'm not good with words like many others on this website are, especially compared to you(I suck at writing). But I just wanted to tell you that one more person gives a damn.


Maybe you can see your stepson again at some point? (I'm not sure of the reason that you said you can't..)

Because you're truly considering living, perhaps you may consider meds to increase serotonin? I'm not saying meds always work, I know they're often overrated. But if they do, it could possibly help you to feel happier overall and make the fight to live easier. If the depression all started after the breakup(I'm so sorry), perhaps time will help to heal wounds? Talking definitely helps too. I think the people on this website can be better than a therapist honestly.

I wish you the best man. I hope you find some happiness.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

I'm not good with words like many others on this website are, especially compared to you(I suck at writing).

I have extensive training in a variety of writing styles as well as editing.

From my perspective, you are an excellent writer. Your thoughts are well organized and very clear.

In one writing class, our instructor gave us an exercise. She said that each of us had an inner critic. We had to think of our inner critic and write a dialogue with him/her. It was quite revealing.

 

[Living sucks]

When you said you were talking to a woman who could have been your soul mate in different circumstances the first night i knew you'd found hope and probably change your mind. It's all most of us really need. Honestly wish i could find some

 

[Pryras]

I'm happy I had the opportunity to speak to such an amazing soul. Sometimes you just need someone who genuinely cares and I can tell you that myself and the others here definitely do! I'm grateful you're here with us now and will be there for you whenever you need support.

 

[MsPotts]

I'm so happy for you! I'm glad that you've found something again. Much love.

 

[faust]

I don't know why, but I feel proud of you.
I wish you all the best on your life path

 

[Donk]

glad you are still with us. i was hoping that was the case before i fell asleep last night

 

[William Barker]

When you said you were talking to a woman who could have been your soul mate in different circumstances the first night i knew you'd found hope and probably change your mind. It's all most of us really need. Honestly wish i could find some

Truthfully, that woman could very well be my true soulmate.

But yes, when the horizon darkens most, we all need to believe there's still hope.

I spoke to God every night and told him that if he wishes me to live, then he would have to take my hand and offer me salvation.

And so he did.

Through each and every one of you kind and caring souls, I was able to find the strength to face tomorrow and to cherish the talent that I've been given.

As so many of you have charitably pointed out to me, I have the capacity for true greatness, and it'd be a true crime for me to continue to squander it on self-pity. So I won't.

 

[bpdandme]

Truthfully, that woman could very well be my true soulmate.

But yes, when the horizon darkens most, we all need to believe there's still hope.

I spoke to God every night and told him that if he wishes me to live, then he would have to take my hand and offer me salvation.

And so he did.

Through each and every one of you kind and caring souls, I was able to find the strength to face tomorrow and to cherish the talent that I've been given.

As so many of you have charitably pointed out to me, I have the capacity for true greatness, and it'd be a true crime for me to continue to squander it on self-pity. So I won't.

This reminded me of Les Miserables (If you haven't watched I would recommend, it is about salvation and hope)!

I hope everything works out for you.

 

[William Barker]

This reminded me of Les Miserables (If you haven't watched I would recommend, it is about salvation and hope)!

I hope everything works out for you.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

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Whoo, stop! Clutchin' mah pearls and fannin' mah face! Mer-cy!!

 

[Luchs]

Truthfully, that woman could very well be my true soulmate.

But yes, when the horizon darkens most, we all need to believe there's still hope.

I spoke to God every night and told him that if he wishes me to live, then he would have to take my hand and offer me salvation.

And so he did.

Through each and every one of you kind and caring souls, I was able to find the strength to face tomorrow and to cherish the talent that I've been given.

As so many of you have charitably pointed out to me, I have the capacity for true greatness, and it'd be a true crime for me to continue to squander it on self-pity. So I won't.

How are you doing man? I saw your thread some time ago and noticed that you are still here. If you changed your mind and need someone to talk with or distract you, message me. :)

This reminded me of Les Miserables (If you haven't watched I would recommend, it is about salvation and hope)!

I hope everything works out for you.

The confrontation was amazing, the whole thing was unbelievably good. I had chills at every line of every song.

This reminded me of Les Miserables (If you haven't watched I would recommend, it is about salvation and hope)!

I hope everything works out for you.

The confrontation was amazing, the whole thing was unbelievably good. I had chills at every line of every song.

 

[Idledays]

Wow. This thread has been a journey to read, let alone live through @William Barker. You must be emotionally exhausted!

A pro-Choice suicide community somehow coming together to help convince a man to live is pretty amazing. I guess therein lies the beauty of pro choice (so rarely understood!!). We all have a right to life just as much as we have a right to die.

I so often read how terrible people are that seeing this thread reminds me that most of us are actually alright and looking out for one another. Maybe we're just not that good at showing it most of the time!

I'm so glad you're sticking around so I can enjoy your posts and writing.

 

[William Barker]

Wow. This thread has been a journey to read, let alone live through @William Barker. You must be emotionally exhausted!

A pro-Choice suicide community somehow coming together to help convince a man to live is pretty amazing. I guess therein lies the beauty of pro choice (so rarely understood!!). We all have a right to life just as much as we have a right to die.

I so often read how terrible people are that seeing this thread reminds me that most of us are actually alright and looking out for one another. Maybe we're just not that good at showing it most of the time!

I'm so glad you're sticking around so I can enjoy your posts and writing.

 

[Luchs]

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My cat has the same pattern on his head, also I'm really jealous, where I live Mc Donald's are all closed. I JUST WANT A SINGLE BIG MAC, GOD PLEASE! D,:

 

[Idledays]

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Poetic.

 

[William Barker]

But on a more serious note, yeah, I'm feeling pretty drained. I unboxed my writing stuff and I'm planning on trying to finish up the prologue on my story tomorrow.

 

[Luchs]

But on a more serious note, yeah, I'm feeling pretty drained. I unboxed my writing stuff and I'm planning on trying to finish up the prologue on my story tomorrow.

Cool! I also really enjoy writing stuff. What kind of story is it, if it isn't too secret to tell?

 

[William Barker]

Cool! I also really enjoy writing stuff. What kind of story is it, if it isn't too secret to tell?

Short answer: It's about loss and alcoholism and moving on.

Long answer: It's about a broken young woman named Mandy who, after one particular night of heavy drinking, wakes up for to find herself transported to a mysterious tower, and the only way escape is for her to literally go through the 12 stages of alcohol recovery, with each floor being based on each step, while battling it out with literal alcohol demons, who wish for Mandy to drown in her sorrow.

 

[enjolras]

You looked rad whatever your happysad faces, displaying a wide array of inner qualities. You broadcast kindness, sincerity, self reflection, trust, only at the top of my head.

We have a reserve of beautiful people. Sometimes I tell myself that @Dead beat dad sports the coolest face too, I'd have confidence to befriend him in a heartbeat. I never mind the worn-out look. Low profile, humble, fragile with weaknesses, full of flaws, with struggles dudes and dudettes are loveable. Shiny on the inside, with plenty of well kept treasures to offer the world. Glad we can keep an artist with value. A touch of pink emerged from a perfect kind of grey at the right moment.

This poem is not from me, but I'd like to share anyway, it can be read both ways, empowering a new start or turn at a moment of darkness

Heartbreak opens onto the sunrise
For even breaking is opening
And I am broken
I'm open
Broken to the new light without pushing in
Open to the possibilities within, pushing out
See the love shine in through my cracks?
See the light shine out through me?
I am broken
I am open
I am broken open
See the love light shining through me
Shining through my cracks
Through the gaps
My spirit takes journey
My spirit takes flight
Could not have risen otherwise
And I am not running
I'm choosing
Running is not a choice from the breaking
Breaking is freeing
Broken is freedom
I am not broken
I'm free.

 

[William Barker]

You looked rad whatever your happysad faces, displaying a wide array of inner qualities. You broadcast kindness, sincerity, self reflection, trust, only at the top of my head.

We have a reserve of beautiful people. Sometimes I tell myself that @Dead beat dad sports the coolest face too, I'd have confidence to befriend him in a heartbeat. I never mind the worn-out look. Low profile, humble, fragile with weaknesses, full of flaws, with struggles dudes and dudettes are loveable. Shiny on the inside, with plenty of well kept treasures to offer the world. Glad we can keep an artist with value. A touch of pink emerged from a perfect kind of grey at the right moment.

This poem is not from me, but I'd like to share anyway, it can be read both ways, empowering a new start or turn at a moment of darkness

Heartbreak opens onto the sunrise
For even breaking is opening
And I am broken
I'm open
Broken to the new light without pushing in
Open to the possibilities within, pushing out
See the love shine in through my cracks?
See the light shine out through me?
I am broken
I am open
I am broken open
See the love light shining through me
Shining through my cracks
Through the gaps
My spirit takes journey
My spirit takes flight
Could not have risen otherwise
And I am not running
I'm choosing
Running is not a choice from the breaking
Breaking is freeing
Broken is freedom
I am not broken
I'm free.

Since we are sharing, here's another by yours truly:

 

[Donk]

Whoo, stop! Clutchin' mah pearls and fannin' mah face! Mer-cy!!

say what?

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

say what?

Sorry, I was speaking Southern American. Allow me to translate:

I am overheated in response to your handsomeness. It makes me grab the genteel, ladylike pearls around my neck and fan my face. Wow. Just stop, I can't handle it.

 

[William Barker]

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Sorry, I was speaking Southern American. Allow me to translate:

I am overheated in response to your handsomeness. It makes me grab the genteel, ladylike pearls around my neck and fan my face. Wow. Just stop, I can't handle it.

I would have also accepted, "My spider-sense is tingling!"

 

[theguineapigking]

I have extensive training in a variety of writing styles as well as editing.

From my perspective, you are an excellent writer. Your thoughts are well organized and very clear.

In one writing class, our instructor gave us an exercise. She said that each of us had an inner critic. We had to think of our inner critic and write a dialogue with him/her. It was quite revealing.

Thank you for the compliment. I was truly shocked that you said that. Perhaps I think I'm bad at writing because I usually write in a more simple way... plain English. My vocabulary isn't the best.

I wish you the best!

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

I would have also accepted, "My spider-sense is tingling!"

Um...

I don't...

I'm so confused.

Spidey-sense means a bad tingling, right?