You know how it feels walking down the street feeling disconnected with reality? It is almost as if you are in a video game without a wifi connection , everyone is just there, no matter what you do the world is not moving. You stay there confused for what seems to be eternity. Being alienated since a child doesn't help with feeling like this and I can't stop it. Every single fucking day in my life (at least when not in hypomania) I wake up and feel like the I'm disconnected from the world, nobody cares about me unless my ugly face makes them laugh, that includes my "friends" who I don't even talk to, I'm just an entertainer. The world needed an idiot to entertain the people so they chose me. I fucking hate people. I hate my parents for even birthing me. I hate myself for not killing myself everyday but I can't, something primal in me says don't. Fuck feelings, fuck compassion, never served me anything. I fucking hate human nature, every thing the human mind does is done for validation. "Oh look at me I want to help those in need", no the fuck you don't Becky you want your peers to uplift your spirit, get that dopamine hit. Just do meth Becky, it's better for it.
Just a rant after another major mental breakdown, have fun
Just a rant after another major mental breakdown, have fun
