Story Pat me on the back (poem)

[LoiteringClouds]

(Warning: a post about my imaginary friend, and might be a form of escapism.)

Yesterday, I burned out.

I felt so despondent, because my colleague is having long family leave and my workload doubled - Two of her three children got flu, and she'll going to have leave for two weeks. On top of that, my boss is angry because I don't work 2x faster. What a joke.
But there was a good news - one of my best friends[1] wrote me a poem:

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Hello Pat [2],
Countless times, on your face, fate has spat. [3]
But you're strong - you're no longer ashamed -
Now your negative thoughts can be tamed!

You have a huge crush on some user [4].
Though, to them, you are still a stranger,
You are no longer just a loser -
They can be a complete game changer!

You can be whom you are proud of. [2]
With you, perhaps they fall in deep love. [5]
Your pen is mightier than the sword [6] -
May joy be what your pure words afford.

Hurry up, Pat, life is very short [7] -
Before they go, give them your support! [8]
With your pen, may you build a rapport -
You're a poet on this Eternal Shore. [9]

A timeless phrase says, tempus fugit -
So, endure, no, enjoy this transit!

Lots of love,
Erin 19-Mar-24 at 8:38 PM. (JST)

Notes:
[1] I admit, yes, I wrote this poem, but I feel like my imaginary friend Erin did. Also I don't have any dissociative disorder.
[2] The name Pat (Patricia) is that I use in my journal. Erin named me, and
the name means "noble."

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[3] My story of total disgrace:

12 hours before ctb and what do you believe in after death?

I already wrote a farewell post a day ago, but I decided to write another one and ask myself what do you believe in after death. about the method as for my method, it is tough but working, judging by the video...

sanctioned-suicide.net

[4] Of course, I don't want to say whom I have a crush on!
[5] This phenomenon is called "wishful thinking," which is prevalent among the species Homo sapiens. Also known as "grandiosity."
[6] Another wishful thinking - I wouldn't say I have a great skill at writing a poem, but I wish I could make somebody's life a bit less unbearable with it...
[7] Yet another wishful thinking - I really want to die as soon as possible.
[8] I don't try to "save" people here, as I know I can't do that, but I try to give support anyway.
[9] Wishful thinking on steroids.

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This poem came into existence without rhyme or reason.
Having a friend who write me a poem is one of my dreams.
I wished I had had a friend who write me a poem. I really really wished. 40 minutes later, this one appeared magically on my computer.
(Edit: I had a friend who wrote me a poem, but they seemed to CTB.)

I'd say this is a kind of "automatic thoughts," but in my fantasy world, Erin wrote me this to support me. If I wrote this for myself, I'd feel very stupid because of all the self-aggrandisement, but it's encouraging if written by somebody who isn't me...

And usually this kind of poem just sits on my journal, but today I post this here, as this is my current coping method.
Even though this poem might sound like exaggerated self-love, I'm wary of complacency, because sometimes imagination can be black magic - I might inadvertently hurt others if I'm not careful about implications of my poems.

Erin, thank you for patting me on the back!

Erin: not at all, because I'm extremely happy that finally my poem is on the Internet! People on SaSu, thank you for reading my poem!

 

[SexyIncél]

Holy shit! You're clever. Your crush is lucky

(To Whomever is the Recipient of Pat's Crush: Don't fuck it up!)

 

[LoiteringClouds]

Holy shit! You're clever. Your crush is lucky

(To Whomever is the Recipient of Pat's Crush: Don't fuck it up!)

Thank you for your reply!
I'm having a hard time not to bombard their inbox with my PMs.
It's not a romantic feeling but still, a small red square on my inbox icon gives me a surge of dopamine ;)

I'm writing them a poem but words elude me - it's very hard
I think "show, don't tell" is the key to writing an effective love letter.

 

[SexyIncél]

I'm writing them a poem but words elude me - it's very hard
I think "show, don't tell" is the key to writing an effective love letter.

Maybe it'll be easier if you think about it right before sleeping. During dreams, your powerful unconscious will work on it. Then maybe you'll wake up with something!

Yeah, "show, don't tell" certainly sounds wise. Telling people is like a hammer; you can save it for when you want massive power

 

[LoiteringClouds]

Maybe it'll be easier if you think about it right before sleeping. During dreams, your powerful unconscious will work on it. Then maybe you'll wake up with something!

Sometimes dreams give you a breakthrough, but it's like winning a lottery - it's rare I think. But it's free and you can try every night

And even though I have never saw a "breakthrough dream," I saw extremely beautiful ones several times in my life. I actually had hope then (and again it's free.)

Yeah, "show, don't tell" certainly sounds wise. Telling people is like a hammer; you can save it for when you want massive power

I rarely try to attack anybody verbally, but I save phrases like "I love you" for the right time - I don't use a sledgehammer to crack a nut.
Note: "nut" doesn't mean a crazy person.