Thoughtforms
Experienced
- Nov 1, 2018
 
- 220
 
It's hard as you cannot foresee what will happen due to you CTBing
I worry my mum will drink herself to death. I worry the pain I feel now won't compare to theirs.
But if I wait and then they are elderly will it be worse for them?
I don't know what to do.
But also I cannot handle the thought of them dying so I'd rather go before them. It's so selfish I know.
	
		
			
		
		
	
			
			I worry my mum will drink herself to death. I worry the pain I feel now won't compare to theirs.
But if I wait and then they are elderly will it be worse for them?
I don't know what to do.
But also I cannot handle the thought of them dying so I'd rather go before them. It's so selfish I know.
			
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