Your so called friend should have never betrayed your trust and called the police. That was a disgusting thing to do. If this person genuinely cared for you, they could have took the time to listen, help you look for mental health services, offer to hang out over coffee, anything to show that they are there for you. Instead, they threw the problem at someone else cause they don't want to deal with it. Thankfully the cops didn't throw you in a psych ward.
This is why I never tell anyone of my suicidal thoughts outside of this forum.
If you're seeing a therapist, perhaps you can have them write a note for your professors so that they can give you more leeway with deadlines and homework. Don't be afraid to take a break from school if you need time. How close are you with your parents? Do you trust them enough that you can talk to them or are they the kind of people that don't listen no matter what?
Thanks for your message, I'll respond to everyone that responded and clarify some misconceptions because I guess my post was a bit too vague on what happened.
It was not a friend of mine that contacted the police, it was through an anonymous online chat that I had with a therapist. I don't know if any of my friends or my girlfriend would do something like that to me because several of them also are suicidal and we joke about so often that I'm unsure if they would even believe me if I told them that I use this site lmao.
I actually think the cops should have thrown me into a psych ward because I feel that that is the only way I could possibly keep myself safe at this point. I know that many people on here actively talk about how awful psych facilities are, but I feel that it is what I should deserve for the kind of shit I've put my family through.
I do have a therapist and I already have an ADD diagnosis that allows me more time for studying and deadlines; yet I'm still failing because I'm too r_t_d_d to even finish my work with the extensions... I love being in a Poli Sci program, but all of my other classes are going to shit from my lack of work completed. Also I don't think taking a break is a good idea, because I nearly did take a leap year and missed the first week and I literally couldn't leave my bed to do anything from being upset.
I love my parents with all my heart and they do listen and will talk with me, the problem is that I don't want to talk to them about my problems and ideation because it's going to make them upset. Just having the police at our door to check on me gave my mom a full panic attack and made my step-dad miss work the next day. I really don't want to do that to them anymore and they are really the only reason I have to live at this point because ending everything would make them the most upset.
Just deny all allegations and claim that ur friend is lying . Ur friend has zero evidence on you , if the cops ask anything , remain silent.Also delete all your search history just to be safe. You can also threaten your friend with a defamation lawsuit ! I know this is hard but you can win this!
It was not a friend that reported me, but an anonymous online chat group. I already use this site with several layers of protection to prevent people from seeing it, except a VPN I guess.
Wait how did your parents find out that you use this site?
You never admitted that to them nor did they catch you. Therefore how did they find out?
Did you tell your friend you use this site? If not then the police obtained a warrant to scour your ISP search history.
The police told my parents that I used the site because the person in the anonymous online therapist chat reported me to my local police. They tracked my phone's location to check in on me, but my parents scoured through my phone and found this site, but I still have access to it.
Just leave the site for a bit and wait for things to cool down. This site is literally the only place you be honest about your ideation. It's helpful tool for those struggling with taboo thoughts. Be safe and I hope you can return
Thank you so much, this was very nice to hear.
