Help pain management?

[Decayed]

i want to ctb but my preferred method (slitting me throat) is quite painful and in the past i've only been able to slit not very deep before the pain made me stop i was wondering if there is anything to help with that, could i build a tolerance to pain by cutting up my body for a while? is there a way to numb it? any help would be appreciated

 

[mehdone]

I've been self injuring for decades, and I've built up quite a tolerance. I have no problem hurting myself.

But, that certainly doesn't mean I could overcome SI and slit my own throat. That's a whole different ballgame.

If I went with that method, I think it would have to be a spur of the moment, quick and direct violent kind of thing. Certainly not a cutting my way to- it'd have to be a stab.

This is just my experience. There are things that can numb the pain, but it won't stop you from being aware of what you're doing, unless you take a significant amount of medication that causes disassociation, like dextromethorphan or ketamine. Even still, that's not going to be an easy way to go.

 

[real human being]

I think that killing yourself by slitting your throat is something you mostly see in movies. It's difficult nigh impossible to overcome the primal physical instincts that would be screaming at you not to do it, at least for most people.

 

[Decayed]

I think that killing yourself by slitting your throat is something you mostly see in movies. It's difficult nigh impossible to overcome the primal physical instincts that would be screaming at you not to do it, at least for most people.

i understand that but the problem is it's the only way that sounds appealing to me i think about it a lot to the point where i would say i'm obsessed with using this method i know first hand how hard it is to do due to past attempts yet i still want to. maybe i should look further into other methods and try to get my brain to pick a new fixation but i'm not sure i really like the idea of slitting my throat