Venting pain is unbearable, i just want to be taken out of this world

[w4itingforthesun]

another day and my heartache and pain is greater than ever. i loved him so so so so so much. i wanted to have him in my life by my side forever. and now every day my thoughts are consumed entirely by him and i go through our messages and read so much and i begin to break down because ill never have that with anyone else ever again. it can only be him, i only wanted it to be him, but he decided his life was better without me. if thats how its going to be then i would rather not live at all. it hurts so badly. and i cant explain enough how "so badly" is a terrible understatement. the pain is quite literally unbearable. it stings. it aches. all i want is him back, but it'll never happen. i don't really care about anything else. i will find a way to ctb, no matter what it takes. i am not strong enough to handle this heartbreak for much longer.
my favoritest person ever in the world decided to leave me, so i take that as a sign i should leave this world.
my days are numb and empty without him. there is a void in me that can never be filled. my thoughts and entire being is consumed by him and how i would tell him everything through the day and we even had things planned for the future and there are things i never got to do with him. i dwell on these feelings every single day, i don't want to feel this way anymore, the only way is to stop existing at all so i can't exist to feel. i love you my sweet boy i hope if i die i can go to a point in the past and make sure you stay this time

 

[kunikuzushi]

i know its the worst pain in the world. it keeps happening to me and i keep begging for him back and he said he stays because he feels bad for me. then he leaves me again and i have to experience the gut wrenching pain over and over again. i know your pain. it hurts me that you know this feeling and you're going through it too. it feels so hopeless and truly unbearable. it's unbearable to live feeling this pain.
i wish you can have peace from this pain. im here if you ever want to talk to someone who understands. i wish you the best

 

[w4itingforthesun]

i know its the worst pain in the world. it keeps happening to me and i keep begging for him back and he said he stays because he feels bad for me. then he leaves me again and i have to experience the gut wrenching pain over and over again. i know your pain. it hurts me that you know this feeling and you're going through it too. it feels so hopeless and truly unbearable. it's unbearable to live feeling this pain.
i wish you can have peace from this pain. im here if you ever want to talk to someone who understands. i wish you the best

in a way i guess im jealous that he stays with you. i cant even beg him to come back or stay because i was blocked on every single possible platform before i had the chance to do anything. its seriously gut wrenching and i cry and cry for hours thinking about how he made my day every day and was the only thing i had to look forward to day by day. he made me want to live just a bit more. i wish he would come back because he feels bad for me i really do. my pain will never stop because he is never coming back. i still love him too much to let go and i don't think i ever will. i relive our memories and conversations every day and feel the guilt of ruining it all. im so miserable i just want to escape this pain once and for all

 

[kunikuzushi]

in a way i guess im jealous that he stays with you. i cant even beg him to come back or stay because i was blocked on every single possible platform before i had the chance to do anything. its seriously gut wrenching and i cry and cry for hours thinking about how he made my day every day and was the only thing i had to look forward to day by day. he made me want to live just a bit more. i wish he would come back because he feels bad for me i really do. my pain will never stop because he is never coming back. i still love him too much to let go and i don't think i ever will. i relive our memories and conversations every day and feel the guilt of ruining it all. im so miserable i just want to escape this pain once and for all

i know it's not the same and I'm sorry to make you feel worse. I've had someone i was extremely attached to suddenly block me on everything possible without letting me say anything and it's traumatizing. it feels so helpless im so sorry. it hurts im sorry. the feeling of being without that one person you want and need and love im so sorry. please i wish you some comfort

 

[w4itingforthesun]

i know it's not the same and I'm sorry to make you feel worse. I've had someone i was extremely attached to suddenly block me on everything possible without letting me say anything and it's traumatizing. it feels so helpless im so sorry. it hurts im sorry. the feeling of being without that one person you want and need and love im so sorry. please i wish you some comfort

all i want is him back and i can't accept a reality where he's not with me anymore. i'd rather just die. this kind of pain is too much for me to handle

 

[kunikuzushi]

all i want is him back and i can't accept a reality where he's not with me anymore. i'd rather just die. this kind of pain is too much for me to handle

i know. im so sorry you have to suffer like this