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raybd

Experienced
Dec 4, 2019
230
Your 30s are fascinating because famous and successful people start being younger than you. You stop thinking you're young and realize you're just bad. You became who you're gonna be and it's not impressive.
Can't generalize. Amy Madigan just got an Oscar at 76. Had no buzz at 26, 36 or 46. Dave Chapelle walked away from it all, came back after a decade or more... and still remained Dave Chapelle. Fame, Success etc. have so many different forms now. An athlete or pro sports person's career is really done by 35. Everything later on, like coaching, is superannuation really. And what about the glorious generation where everybody got 6 years lopped of their lives for WWII? In 2024, the Chemistry Nobel went to two guys from Deep Mind in their early 40s. In 2025, it went to a guy in his 60s, another in his 70s and a third in his 80s. So, what do you make of this pasta-jumble?
Then, there are ever so many burnouts in all fields, who succeeded when young. In this weird globalized economy, I think barometers of success and fame are highly subjective. We should only measure what we set out to do in life and how far apart we are. Personally, I know I've had some decent success when spared of health trauma. So, should I count my blessings or bemoan my woes? Which? A clear judgment call.
 
SchizoPolyGymnast

SchizoPolyGymnast

Elementalist
May 28, 2024
894
Then why are you on a suicide website if everything is so positive for you.
Are you bothered by me being here, or are you just curious?

I have a disability. I'm not suicidal all the time, but when I am, it's a crash and burn affair.
 
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Jamesbond

Member
May 27, 2020
38
Are you bothered by me being here, or are you just curious?

I have a disability. I'm not suicidal all the time, but when I am, it's a crash and burn affair.
Just wondering what makes you want to be on a suicide website if you're happy and doing well, of course I'm not bothered by you. Just trying to understand why
 
SchizoPolyGymnast

SchizoPolyGymnast

Elementalist
May 28, 2024
894
Just wondering what makes you want to be on a suicide website if you're happy and doing well, of course I'm not bothered by you. Just trying to understand why
Gotcha! The reason I am happy and doing well is because of SaSu. It's the only place where I feel confident that if anything is happening in my life, someone will be there, I won't be censored to the point of absurdity (Instagram, I'm looking at you), and I definitely won't have 911 called on me. If I can make friends, give advice, and offer emotional support along the way, that's even better.
 
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Jamesbond

Member
May 27, 2020
38
Gotcha! The reason I am happy and doing well is because of SaSu. It's the only place where I feel confident that if anything is happening in my life, someone will be there, I won't be censored to the point of absurdity (Instagram, I'm looking at you), and I definitely won't have 911 called on me. If I can make friends, give advice, and offer emotional support along the way, that's even better.
That makes sense sort of. Don't you ever worry it will drag you down when you have dark times being so used to being on here. Since I made my decision I have become hyper focused on here and the idea of killing myself is becoming less scary to me
 
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SchizoPolyGymnast

Elementalist
May 28, 2024
894
That makes sense sort of. Don't you ever worry it will drag you down when you have dark times being so used to being on here. Since I made my decision I have become hyper focused on here and the idea of killing myself is becoming less scary to me
I'm waiting until my parents are gone, then I will reassess. I have a favorite method picked out. But for now, I'm not miserable. I'll take it.
 
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MillennialApathy

New Member
Mar 15, 2026
3
I'm 35. My reasons are mostly financial. Unemployed and have zero safety net. If I had a job and the ability to afford the standard cost of living, I'd be able to muddle through. But without income, within capitalism, I'd rather ctb than suffer through homelessness with zero resources.

I also suffer from existentialism. The inability to simply 'exist' in life without every aspect of it being behind a paywall I will never be able to afford is the the other factor why I'll be leaving this physical experience.

If I had other options such as a job, a place to live, or other tangible support, I probably wouldn't CTB and would simply muddle through the rest of my existence. Since I have no financial options and no where to safely acquire options, I'll just see myself out.
 
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Jamesbond

Member
May 27, 2020
38
I'm waiting until my parents are gone, then I will reassess. I have a favorite method picked out. But for now, I'm not miserable. I'll take it.
Are they sick or something? Sorry if I sound cold I don't mean to, I struggle with people and understanding reasons. I've had to completely switch of the part of my brain that can think about any impact my death will have on anyone else. I don't see anyone anyway but for me I can't afford to think about anyone else
 
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SchizoPolyGymnast

Elementalist
May 28, 2024
894
Are they sick or something? Sorry if I sound cold I don't mean to, I struggle with people and understanding reasons. I've had to completely switch of the part of my brain that can think about any impact my death will have on anyone else. I don't see anyone anyway but for me I can't afford to think about anyone else
No worries, I get it.

My parents both have a potentially dangerous heart arrhythmia, and my dad had a stroke. My mother has had multiple surgeries. I have been their caregiver for years. They are doing well right now, and I want to make the most of my time with them while they are still here. I will lay them to rest when the time comes, and then maybe I will follow. I figure my job will be done at that point.

Thank you for taking the time to understand. I'm happy to answer any questions you have.
 
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StoneCactus

New Member
Mar 15, 2026
1
I'm in my 40s and I'm potentially looking at prison. Which is survivable except for the fact that I'm autistic and Jewish in a US state where you basically have to join a race-based gang to survive and the whites hate Jews. If I get into GP there's a very good chance someone like the Aryan Brotherhood will do terrible things to me, possibly even worse than killing me.
 
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unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
1,081
I'm 43, male, France. I have multiple health issues including cervical dystonia which causes me muscle spams and chronic pain. But my mental health is maybe worse than my physical condition. Agoraphobia since I was 16, traumas since my childhood and so on... Never had sex, never been in love with someone. I only experienced violence, humiliation and pain. In fact, I should be dead since a long time but my SI is so powerful. Shit...
 

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