brokensea
Arcanist
- Aug 4, 2022
- 406
I ordered my SN today. I'm finally going to be free soon from all of it. All of the unrelenting pain, loneliness and emptiness. I'll forget everything that happened to me in this life. I'll forget that man that left me for another woman and didn't call me when I had a miscarriage and left me alone to die. All his cruelty and words. What was ripped out of me. Never being able to have children again. All of the cruel people I've met one by one in my life. All of the horrible memories stuck inside me like glue. Never healing. It never heals. There's too much and too many bad things that have happened to me that no one can overcome. It just starts to drag you down and down and more hooks grab you and more pain until the weight can't be carried anymore. I do feel sad for the people who will be sad and my cat as well I know will miss me. All I've done is try and I have no will and no desire to try again and I can't overcome now what my life has become. I've spent over two years barely leaving my house. Nothing can ever help or heal something so broken. I'm tired of this pain. I'm looking forward to being free from this burden I can no longer carry or live with.
