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PracheenKaal_00!
Student
- Aug 22, 2023
- 162
Hey folks, I'm new to this website. I am from India. Got to know this website through NYT article, also while researching methods.
Whatever I've typed is serious. Also, apologies if I made any mistake while posting, if I've used the wrong prefix, and if it is too long.
I strongly believe that people should be able to determine their fate. If they want to kill themselves, they should be able to do so without being stopped. I wish more people understood this, sadly this is not the case.
I am looking forward to guidance.
I am looking for guidance regarding suicide methods.
I would like to know the optimal method, by which I can take my own life. Preferably KCN or SN, along with other meds to prevent vomiting, and alcohol to reduce the pain.
Also, how to ensure that my SI does not kick in? I want to be able to kill myself without being paralyzed, seriously injured or being resuscitated, and worse, forcefully admitted in a hospital ward. I have only one shot at this.
I will kill myself one way or another, it's a matter of time. I just want to now the optimal method.
Also, should I leave a suicide note, or to not leave any note at all?
My other question is what are the other ways in which I can effectively hide my suicide plans? I do not want anyone to discover my plans.
I plan to kill myself by Dec / Jan. The reason I chose these months is because:
1. I do not want anyone to get suspicious, and get to know my plans. I am doing my best to hide my plans. Thankfully no one knows it yet.
2. My family's / relative's / friend's birthdays are most in Dec, If I took my own life during before their birthdays got over, it would cause a shitstorm.
The reason I plan to kill myself is cuz I'm losing control of my damn mind, and myself. I am unable to control my facial expressions. I am trying my best to hide it by wearing a mask. It is getting worse day by day. Due to this my reputation has taken a hit (in a really bad manner).
Plus that people are constantly nagging me about me wearing my mask. If I remove my mask, My reputation will be permanently sealed for good. I cannot live like this for long. It is getting worse as the days pass by.
Also, my mental health has got a lot worse than before, and it's further declining (and I literally mean it). I had taken help before. It had worked, only temporarily though. I am afraid that if I take help, it will not be effective again. I'll further elaborate it with more details in a different thread.
Anyways, coming back to the point:
I am using duckduckgo only to browse this website, so as to not raise any alarms, and that my plans do not get unraveled. I cannot afford my plans from being unraveled.
I am using proton mail, same reasons.
None of my family members have access to my device passwords, or at least this website password and username.
I am carrying my day to day routine as usual, to avoid any suspicion.
Folks, any other tips / suggestions / methods.
Looking forward to hear from y'all.
Whatever I've typed is serious. Also, apologies if I made any mistake while posting, if I've used the wrong prefix, and if it is too long.
I strongly believe that people should be able to determine their fate. If they want to kill themselves, they should be able to do so without being stopped. I wish more people understood this, sadly this is not the case.
I am looking forward to guidance.
I am looking for guidance regarding suicide methods.
I would like to know the optimal method, by which I can take my own life. Preferably KCN or SN, along with other meds to prevent vomiting, and alcohol to reduce the pain.
Also, how to ensure that my SI does not kick in? I want to be able to kill myself without being paralyzed, seriously injured or being resuscitated, and worse, forcefully admitted in a hospital ward. I have only one shot at this.
I will kill myself one way or another, it's a matter of time. I just want to now the optimal method.
Also, should I leave a suicide note, or to not leave any note at all?
My other question is what are the other ways in which I can effectively hide my suicide plans? I do not want anyone to discover my plans.
I plan to kill myself by Dec / Jan. The reason I chose these months is because:
1. I do not want anyone to get suspicious, and get to know my plans. I am doing my best to hide my plans. Thankfully no one knows it yet.
2. My family's / relative's / friend's birthdays are most in Dec, If I took my own life during before their birthdays got over, it would cause a shitstorm.
The reason I plan to kill myself is cuz I'm losing control of my damn mind, and myself. I am unable to control my facial expressions. I am trying my best to hide it by wearing a mask. It is getting worse day by day. Due to this my reputation has taken a hit (in a really bad manner).
Plus that people are constantly nagging me about me wearing my mask. If I remove my mask, My reputation will be permanently sealed for good. I cannot live like this for long. It is getting worse as the days pass by.
Also, my mental health has got a lot worse than before, and it's further declining (and I literally mean it). I had taken help before. It had worked, only temporarily though. I am afraid that if I take help, it will not be effective again. I'll further elaborate it with more details in a different thread.
Anyways, coming back to the point:
I am using duckduckgo only to browse this website, so as to not raise any alarms, and that my plans do not get unraveled. I cannot afford my plans from being unraveled.
I am using proton mail, same reasons.
None of my family members have access to my device passwords, or at least this website password and username.
I am carrying my day to day routine as usual, to avoid any suspicion.
Folks, any other tips / suggestions / methods.
Looking forward to hear from y'all.
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