So, I picked my date and I've been stocking up on my method. I think this will work:
I have about 200 tabs of dihyrocodeine (very weak, I know, that's why I need more)
I have at least 300 tabs of Valium, maybe more.
Ad 200 tabs of butalbital, which is also a barbiturate
And I have several boxes of Zofran----an anti-emitic.
Unfortunately, I do have tolerance due to chronic pain. So I've been not taking them to drop my tolerance as low as possible. I haven't eaten in about 4 days. Just water and Gatorade.
I figured if I drive way out in the country (easy to do where I live), and then just rotate all those with plenty of Zolfran. Maybe wash it down with some Everclear, I should fall into the Pleasant Sleep That Ends All Problems.
Part of it is my whole family is dead, and yet at the same time, I'm angry with them for every bringing me into this horrible world. I've had chronic pain for 20 years, can't get a job, can't make friends....I mean, why stay? I would NEVER have had a baby a forced this life onto another human being! I'm still kind of angry at my parents for forcing me into this world when I didn't ask to be, even though they were great parents. But they're dead now. I'd rather roll the dice on a chance that maybe I'll see them on the other side, but at least I won't be HERE and in never-ending pain that no doctor will treat. (I bought the meds off the dark web, but in normal doses they don't even take the edge off the pain.)
Anybody see any problems with this method? I live in a rural enough area, that's there a good chance no one will find me for days or even weeks. I just don't want to fucing take all that only to WAKE UP from a very long NAP!