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LostZombie

LostZombie

Transgirl Chemist
Oct 10, 2025
179
So it started when I had just gotten discharged from a holding facility when my mother arrived and picked me up. we stayed at a hotel, and in the morning I went to my place, and saw my SN still in place thankfully. I packed my stuff up, made an 8 hour drive to a state with some family, and now I'm chilling at their place without much privacy; yet I'm still on here, that shows how good of a job they are doing at "protecting me".

I have just started unpacking, and even through the discarding of half my stuff by my mom for them being "unnecessary" I still have my SN hidden deep in my pile of stuff. However I am being forced to eat every meal of the day, and drink plenty of water so I will not have the time to drift off into my death; it also won't be able to kill me due to all the other stuff in blood possibly causing other issues. So my plan is that since I'm being forced into a php program, I'll create a slow "change" in me so that I can eventually have just day to myself then take my SN.

Wish me luck in my "treatment" I hope I don't get brainwashed by mindless pro-lifers
 
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Sadbanana

God doesn't care
Aug 20, 2024
240
Sorry to hear your parents are forcing you into "treatment". Luckily my parents aren't like that. Although my dad wanted to have me locked up in a ward, but when I explained him that being locked up somewhere against my will won't magically heal me, he stoped.
 
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Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
977
Smart move. I hid my SN so well, that even I who knows it's exact location would require a lot of work and moving furniture around to get to it. I also masked the bottle, but I written on it that is a poison in case someone is stupid enough to start using it as a table salt šŸ˜†
 
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