Only 42 years old

[hopeforafterlife]

I will be ending my life soon. I have severe neurological brain damage. I really don't want to die, but I can't live in this state anymore. It's impossible to describe. My occipital nerves, lobes and brain are ruined and there's nothing that can be done about it. I think I will shoot myself in the heart. As I am heartbroken by this turn of events. It's been over 3 years and I had spent the last 10 prior to that getting to a point where my life was livable again, now my condition has deteriorated severely. I hate what happened to me in this life. I hope to reincarnate. I think that if there is a conscious witness to what I endure, that they would not punish me having to take what's left of my life. I wish things had turned out differently. This is the hardest thing.

 

[Defenestration]

Oh my god it's terrible
YOu are very young for this
i Hope you will found peace

 

[Captive_Mind515]

Sorry about your struggles.

Please don't shoot yourself in the heart, it is an unreliable method and will be very painful.

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[CloudyNightSky]

Im sorry for what you have to go through rn. Living like this has to be extremely difficult and exhausting, but I know too little things about gunshot in the heart. Only a bit about to the head so idk wich is better. Either way hope everything works out for you in the best way possible.

 

[notforl0ng]

I'm so sorry. Life is so fucking unfair. My advice is to please be careful about shooting yourself in the heart. It's a pretty big organ but that sounds easy to botch. In the center of your mouth, pointing towards the back of your skull at a 45 degree angle seems to be the single best way.

I've never been religious, but reincarnation and buddhism as a whole are beautiful to think about. It would give life purpose instead of the chaotic nothingness I pessimistically believe it to be.

I hope you find peace and that your next life is more fair to you, friend.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you eventually find peace from your suffering, it sounds really horrible what you've been through, it's certainly such a cruel and hellish existence where people have to suffer so extremely.

 

[Defenestration]

I hope that you eventually find peace from your suffering, it sounds really horrible what you've been through, it's certainly such a cruel and hellish existence where people have to suffer so extremely.

Yes Indeed