Anna.
Wishing I never existed
- Aug 24, 2022
- 68
the prospect of dying doesn't scare me. i think i'm more scared of the idea of failing and having to face the consequences. i'm excited to die.
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Sapphire
Student
- Nov 22, 2022
- 185
I would say 9. I'm not really afraid of failure because I have chosen a very reliable method and have a well thought out plan. I am afraid of the dying process and being alone in my last moments. I am afraid of a possible afterlife.
BornToFail
Experienced
- Sep 9, 2022
- 285
I'm afraid of pain and I'm afraid of failing and then living out disabled somehow due to the failed attempt's damage.
The method I will use is SN, if I do it. I'm currently trying to get some, hopefully my source was legit and will arrive.
I'm not afraid of being dead, or dying. As long as it's not too painful and it sticks.
The method I will use is SN, if I do it. I'm currently trying to get some, hopefully my source was legit and will arrive.
I'm not afraid of being dead, or dying. As long as it's not too painful and it sticks.
It really just depends on where does our consciousness go. If I go to heaven/paradise of some kind, it doesn't scare me. If our consciousness just stop existing, it doesn't scare me. If we have to roam the afterlife full of regrets for what could have been, it definitely scares me.
Sanctuary
Member
- Nov 30, 2022
- 15
10 but not as much as what I'm facing here on earth. I'm in an all around horrible situation , if I could just press a button and be dead right now I'd do it
releasespieces
Poles are shifting, death is looming
- Jun 26, 2022
- 286
☆AwaitingEntropy☆
Snuffing the Light Out
- Nov 6, 2021
- 208
It depends. I'm not particularly scared of death.
4?
I'm more worried about how my loved ones would take it. That brings it up to a 6 or 7.
4?
I'm more worried about how my loved ones would take it. That brings it up to a 6 or 7.
SectOfValtiel
Attendant of God
- Nov 7, 2022
- 217
10
i cant stand pain, i worry any attempt will result in a failure and my life will get even worse- but ill be too weak to try again
i worry that maybe ive been wrong this whole time and my death really would hurt the people around me, or i would be missing out on the opportunity to finally be happy if i did go
i also worry that it wont be the end to everything... like ill still end up waking up somewhere, still in pain
or maybe some kind of personal hell does exist and thats where ill wind up
what if i have to face every mistake i ever made in life before i can 'move on'? i already cant stand that in the land of the living
theres also this irrational fear, but it definitely adds to it just because of how freaky it is
there was this SCP story i read awhile back where, basically (and im paraphrasing heavily) someone died and was eventually brought back to life using your typical weird SCP bullshit, but they talk about how every second since their death was excruciating; they couldnt move or talk or anything but could still feel everything, was still completely conscious
as their body rotted and their flesh died away they felt every second of that pain and loneliness, what would have been eternal torture
like i said, irrational, just a scary story
but it leaves a mark, pops into my head every time i imagine death
i cant stand pain, i worry any attempt will result in a failure and my life will get even worse- but ill be too weak to try again
i worry that maybe ive been wrong this whole time and my death really would hurt the people around me, or i would be missing out on the opportunity to finally be happy if i did go
i also worry that it wont be the end to everything... like ill still end up waking up somewhere, still in pain
or maybe some kind of personal hell does exist and thats where ill wind up
what if i have to face every mistake i ever made in life before i can 'move on'? i already cant stand that in the land of the living
theres also this irrational fear, but it definitely adds to it just because of how freaky it is
there was this SCP story i read awhile back where, basically (and im paraphrasing heavily) someone died and was eventually brought back to life using your typical weird SCP bullshit, but they talk about how every second since their death was excruciating; they couldnt move or talk or anything but could still feel everything, was still completely conscious
as their body rotted and their flesh died away they felt every second of that pain and loneliness, what would have been eternal torture
like i said, irrational, just a scary story
but it leaves a mark, pops into my head every time i imagine death
The actual suicide? 1. Waking up retarded because I fucked up and went hypoxic for too long but didn't die? 10.
Ineedtodie
Shame, Avoidance, hopelessness, lonliness, cbt, pm
- Nov 9, 2022
- 401
Zegers
Enlightened
- Dec 15, 2021
- 1,758
Can you tell how it was?
1/2 main factor / SI / failure / incertitude
but it depends a bit on method
N: 1
SN: 2
Hgun: 0
HermitLonerGuy
Warlock
- Sep 28, 2022
- 707
dying itself doesnt scare me, it brings me relief. The idea of failing an attempt and ending up even more messed up and disabled is what scares me.
Doom
Student
- Nov 21, 2022
- 108
Rairii
Is it necessary?
- Nov 27, 2022
- 133
Probably a 5. Most of the fear comes from what happens after death. I am still terrified that hell is real and I will end up there.
makethepainstop
Visionary
- Sep 16, 2022
- 2,029
Scare? ME? You have got to be kidding! I am almost in a state of ecstasy!
Forget CTB, I'm wanting to go by commercial jet aircraft! The engines are revving up WHEEEEEE! We getting ready for take off!
LittleBlackCat
Specialist
- Feb 6, 2020
- 315
SpiroSundae
She/Her
- Dec 1, 2022
- 47
1, not scared of actual death. But when I start thinking of people that love me, 10.
