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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
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Hi everyone, welcome back. I've done a lot of partial practice the last couple days (nowhere close to dying). I told my therapist and he threatened to petition me and now I have to go to a mental hospital for 72 hours. I had virtually no chance of suicide in this time and I'm missing out on a cool event tomorrow night. That's what you get for telling on yourself. What a shitshow.
 
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fishperson

If only luck was by my side
Jan 22, 2026
417
Hope the days pass by quick for u
 
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Exhausted546

Specialist
Dec 1, 2025
368
Hi everyone, welcome back. I've done a lot of partial practice the last couple days (nowhere close to dying). I told my therapist and he threatened to petition me and now I have to go to a mental hospital for 72 hours. I had virtually no chance of suicide in this time and I'm missing out on a cool event tomorrow night. That's what you get for telling on yourself. What a shitshow.
This will always be the result of you talk to a healthcare professional, if you die and it's learned that they hadn't acted,they could be liable to a certain extent. They're protecting their ass, there's no reason to reveal it.
 
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_wishforwings

_wishforwings

Forever is such an unpleasant word.
Feb 4, 2026
77
I know it's only been a few days but i've missed seeing your posts here, hope it hasn't been too rough for you
 
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OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,828
I ended up there for 6 days. It was freezing cold and my roommates snored deafeningly. Nothing is fixed now that I'm out. I lost my rope again, not that it was gonna work. Back to fantasizing about buying a gun and not doing it.
 
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fishperson

If only luck was by my side
Jan 22, 2026
417
I ended up there for 6 days. It was freezing cold and my roommates snored deafeningly. Nothing is fixed now that I'm out. I lost my rope again, not that it was gonna work. Back to fantasizing about buying a gun and not doing it.
Lmao he is backkk. Did they force u take pills or what
 
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OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,828
Lmao he is backkk. Did they force u take pills or what
Same pills as before, a little more. I had to go phoneless and now everyone's wondering what's up. I don't know what to say. I still don't want to exist but I know I'm too chickenshit to end my life. I feel like things are going to continue to collapse while I just sit at home doing nothing. I'm already back to procrastinating again, posting here. Procrastinating was all I did on the ward, playing sudoku and coloring. I tried to read books but it's hard to engage in meaningful thought. Anything I might think about besides digits 1-9 is going to link back to my life and my shortcomings and the fact that I'm gonna run out of money.
 
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idontknowwhatiam

Arcanist
Sep 10, 2025
418
It's good to see you back and that you're safe. I missed you Legs.
 
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metfan647

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Jun 12, 2025
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Sometimes I think about reaching out for help but I know it's all a ruse. This is a good reminder. They deprive you of your liberty for a while, tick some boxes then send you on your way.
 
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OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,828
Sometimes I think about reaching out for help but I know it's all a ruse. This is a good reminder. They deprive you of your liberty for a while, tick some boxes then send you on your way.
Lot of checklists, lot of getting your blood pressure read, no soul-healing
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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I always love that they come at you with the air of helping you, but it's really just a prison sentence. Our mental health system is so fucked.
 
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