Venting Nothing makes anything better

[thegogos]

I'm (allegedly) doing all the right fucking things. None of it progresses to helping me. I was in a relationship w who i thought was the love of my life it ends miserable and me broken to nothing. I leave the miserable relationship and i go to school and I do my work and I go to workwork I'm "functioning" "growing" and it all makes me more miserable and lonely. No one seeks out my company. I walk by people like ann invisible ghost annd I'm not even trying to. And I can't afford to go out anyway. And this is just supposed to be my life for at least the next few years. I'm so tired of everyone's expectations for me. Why can't I just be a failure. I wasn't built for any of this. Every step forward is a pathetic ten steps back. I'm past my expiration date