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c4di

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oyasumi
Oct 9, 2025
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im not comfortable in any space, not in my house, not around my family, not online, not outside, i always feel suffocated 24/7 like im always messing up something. i dont look good and probably never will, no one in my life is ever there for me, just always dealing with everything myself. i dont have an education, i dont have a job, im not interested in anything doing anything just ends up making me feel like shit, i genuinely have nothing left. all i do is think about my suicide but i dont have access to any reliable methods all i can do is overdose and hope i die. im so fucking tired of all of this, im really really tired.
 
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batmanreal

very normal guy
Sep 9, 2025
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i strongly relate to nearly everything you've said. i'm sorry you also have to go through this. my mere existence feels like a chore. i'm just taking up resources, and having a horrible time doing so. everything that could help just makes me feel worse, so all i can do is just sit back and feel everything while my brain throws a tantrum. it's such a horrible and draining feeling, i hope you can find some peace soon. i'll be wishing you the best.
 
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oyasumi
Oct 9, 2025
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i strongly relate to nearly everything you've said. i'm sorry you also have to go through this. my mere existence feels like a chore. i'm just taking up resources, and having a horrible time doing so. everything that could help just makes me feel worse, so all i can do is just sit back and feel everything while my brain throws a tantrum. it's such a horrible and draining feeling, i hope you can find some peace soon. i'll be wishing you the best.
thank you, same to you
 
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May 16, 2025
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I feel the same exact way. I have no energy or want to do anything. I feel like a black ball of cancer that needs to be exterminated.
 
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