Venting nothing is keeping me here

[hotelandrea]

i haven't had any contact with my family in 6 years. my fiance left me last year. my friend group has been steadily dwindling. my cats will be very well cared for by my ex. i have a shit ton of debt and a dead end job.

when i take an inventory of my life, there isn't much to show for it. in other words, i don't have a compelling reason to postpone my ctb date.

 

[socksnsandles]

i have people but they basically mean nothing to me. i have no compelling reason either. which i guess is liberating but also makes the days that we do spend here feel absolutely mind numbingly pointless