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whocaresabouttrans

whocaresabouttrans

Dumbest of dumb girls
Jun 23, 2026
18
Writing a suicide note is so hard I don't know how to comfort the people I love while also telling off the people I hated without sounding insane. It occupies my mind so often with how to address how many great (and fucking awful) people I've met through the eSports scene, I don't want to write a fucking dissertation addressing every single person, teammate, and coach I've been met. I feel like they deserve closure since I like them and don't want them to feel bad. Or since I'm gonna be dead and no one's going to remember me anyway I just don't post a note and disappear and hope I'll be remembered like Twisten? Idk I feel like I'm going insane trying to write this.
 
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CarbonBased

CarbonBased

The Nothing
Jun 18, 2026
215
I figured that there isn't really anything worth saying, so I'm leaving no notes. You do you, though
 
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hdead

Student
Jun 2, 2026
181
I promised my mom a note. Other than that, I've said enough. I'll probably rewrite that one note a hundred or more times tho...
 
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Lamentice

Lamentice

Walk without rhythm and you won't attract the worm
Mar 27, 2023
298
I'm not leaving a note. If it couldn't be said when I was alive, what's different when I'm dead? Never have liked explaining myself, humans don't listen, they project.
 
kju

kju

It’s all over once I close the door
Jun 25, 2026
7
Writing a suicide note is so hard I don't know how to comfort the people I love while also telling off the people I hated without sounding insane. It occupies my mind so often with how to address how many great (and fucking awful) people I've met through the eSports scene, I don't want to write a fucking dissertation addressing every single person, teammate, and coach I've been met. I feel like they deserve closure since I like them and don't want them to feel bad. Or since I'm gonna be dead and no one's going to remember me anyway I just don't post a note and disappear and hope I'll be remembered like Twisten? Idk I feel like I'm going insane trying to write this.
I suppose the best thing to do is to be honest. Write what you want to happen to your belongings/body after you die, tell the people you care about you love them and those who hurt you how they did so. It doesn't have to be an essay, the length depends if you want to go into detail why you're making this choice. No matter how you write your note, the people who care about you WILL feel bad, this is the only thing you can't really escape. Leaving no note is okay too, since it's your choice in the end
 
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suicidewristrag

Member
Jun 18, 2026
13
There's this webpage that, although not being about literally about what to write on a suicide note, it does go over what people expect out of a letter.
 
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needtofindrightway

needtofindrightway

needtofindrightway
Jun 15, 2025
42
I have written a suicide note and it was pathetic. It only contained a few sentences along the lines of -not your fault, im not strong enough to carry on, I love you

I think when you want to ctb you pain is so big, you can't really express it. So you need to decide whether to write one page or at least ten.
 
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