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RottenSoul

RottenSoul

Disociating through life
Dec 20, 2021
27
7/10
 
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suffocatingseraphim

suffocatingseraphim

⸙𖦹killing the self as to protect it from harm𖦹⸙
Feb 6, 2020
109
7.5-8/10

been laying in wait for a phone call for hours, running on 5 hours of sleep. my stomach has been weighted with anxiety for hours on end with no breaks. I feel hollowed out and so, so livid. I really struggle with changed plans, I struggle with boredom. It feels like a stake being driven through my skull. I just want to fucking get rid of this feeling.
 
C

ConstantPain

Sorry but cats are so much better than people
Jun 9, 2022
394
8/10
Found out I lost another job and had another awful birthday. I don't often think about running in front of traffic or laying down on the train track but today I have.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,652
8....depressed🥵🥵🥵
 
U

urgent

Why do I have to suffer unbearably! HELP PLEASE!
Dec 6, 2025
387
10/10
I really need the torture to end
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,652
9......Phiphi plus distant ? pas de message avec des coeurs? ça m'a donné mal de ventre et diarrhée tellement ça me stresse
 
T

thelostautistic

Warlock
Jul 31, 2025
772
Maybe 7/10. My mood is getting really low again.
 
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A

accountnamerequired

Student
Oct 9, 2023
103
I think I'm ok right now, just bored af. No one I usually talk to is around so I came on here
 
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foreverfalling

foreverfalling

Specialist
Jul 22, 2022
301
9/10, traumatic memories playing and unable to sleep, no appetite.
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,652
turstehers

turstehers

Member
Jun 20, 2026
22
How do you arrive at those numbers? I can never guess it so precisely.
But it's somewhere at 3/4.
 
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iamsotired25

Member
Jun 2, 2026
9
8/10 - I don't want to live anymore. I just can't do it. I want my past back - I wish I could go back in the past and fix things - I hate my life now
 
troubled_puppet

troubled_puppet

she/her
Apr 29, 2026
42
7/10.
nothing even happened today.

eight fucking billion people in the world who are cool and interesting. and im stuck here in my office at 2am in the morning. accomplishing fck all.

sleep is fcked up. no appetite.
 
HNR_

HNR_

Close to a new start...or meet my end
May 21, 2026
254
7/10.
nothing even happened today.

eight fucking billion people in the world who are cool and interesting. and im stuck here in my office at 2am in the morning. accomplishing fck all.

sleep is fcked up. no appetite.
Most people are uninteresting morons, folks that aren't are pretty rare, to be honest, if it somehow comforts you to an extent
Look at people online for instance, not the ones some algos push but people in the comments, not the best metric but still accurate enough to give you an idea
4/10

Haven't checked the news today so I guess I'm ok, mostly tired of the heatwave and inaccurate forecasts making it uncertain when I should actually CTB
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,652
7 tiring depressing anxious
 
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LRkin

LRkin

Lost in the steppe
Jun 30, 2026
155
5/10
Preparing myself to leave my shitty job for another shitty job, but at least they promise to pay me more
 
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LoveIsLonely

LoveIsLonely

Not Living Just Killing Time
Apr 14, 2026
134
10/10 my ex just said she doesn't even want me as a friend. She was my reason for staying and I had hope but this text just killed me.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,652
10/10 Mon ex vient de dire qu'elle ne veut même plus de moi comme amie. Elle était ma raison de rester et j'avais encore de l'espoir, mais ce message m'a anéanti.
🫂🫂🫂😓❤️
 
cx31993

cx31993

Member
Jan 13, 2026
7
Was 9 for a couple of days (incl. this morning), I live in a cesspool with ~70 iq goblins
It would have been a 10 before I started living a healthy lifestyle, now I deal with stress better, and yet I wanted to kms dearly
What made me feel better now is SaSu and the thought of half a kilo of tea that I be picking up tomorrow
 

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