Not wanting to be found

[idkwho]

I've been thinking of booking a hotel room when I ctb but now, I kind of want to do it in a place where I won't be found like even after I die. In a forest or something. The only problem is that I'm such a wuss when it comes to the thought of the insects and whatever creature there may be at forests like what if I'm already minutes away from dying (I'm taking SN btw) and I suddenly see a snake or some shit, I'll most likely run for my dying life lmao but yes, that's basically the only thing holding me back and I know it seems ridiculous but I'm just unfortunately really really scared of those

 

[jodes2]

Could you CTB in a car in a forest? If there's a track you can drive down where nobody will find you? It's a bit more visible, but even in an open forest to all the elements your bones will still be findable for a very long time, so if anybody goes there at all your body would still be found.

Why don't you want your body found at all? Life insurance policies you have for others that don't pay out on suicide, I'm guessing?

 

[idkwho]

Could you CTB in a car in a forest? If there's a track you can drive down where nobody will find you? It's a bit more visible, but even in an open forest to all the elements your bones will still be findable for a very long time, so if anybody goes there at all your body would still be found.

Why don't you want your body found at all? Life insurance policies you have for others that don't pay out on suicide, I'm guessing

Unfortunately, I have no car. And I don't want to be found because if I do go on with my plan to ctb at a hotel, they'll know it's suicide and I belong in a religion which is strongly against it. Also, two of my brothers are pastors in the church and we have this rule that basically says that when a family member does something shitty that's against the teachings, the other family members - if they're officers or in this case, ministers - are basically gonna lose their job and I don't want that to happen to my brothers so I'd rather die and not be found :'>

 

[gimzero]

Me to i want to vanished in a cave.

 

[FallFadesIntoWinter]

Tbh, if you're already thinking of CTB and are seriously considering it, seems to me the least of your problems is things in an actual forest.

I live near a massive forest and have hiked through it many, many times. Most creatures will stay far away from you, insects won't be an issue either. A forest is the perfect place to CTB because it's serene, private and if you don't want to be found, well, the deeper you go into it, the least likely you'll be found.

Why do I say all of this? Because I've planned the same thing... to CTB in a forest.

 

[FuneralCry]

I like the idea of dying in a forest, somewhere far away from any people. It's the closest someone can get to completely disappearing which is ideal to me. I've always wished to just disappear. In an ideal world I would wish to erase my existence like I never existed at all.
But your feelings of never wanting to be found are completely understandable, I would personally rather let those left behind have closure as to what happened to me, but in your case the way that you feel makes sense. I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

You'd really need to go deep into the wilderness for a real change of never being found.

 

[marcy2022]

Some place with lots of trees for miles and miles around with least human tracffic or a deep enough water body with something heavy tied down or maybe a cave almost no one knows about.

 

[idkwho]

Tbh, if you're already thinking of CTB and are seriously considering it, seems to me the least of your problems is things in an actual forest.

I live near a massive forest and have hiked through it many, many times. Most creatures will stay far away from you, insects won't be an issue either. A forest is the perfect place to CTB because it's serene, private and if you don't want to be found, well, the deeper you go into it, the least likely you'll be found.

Why do I say all of this? Because I've planned the same thing... to CTB in a forest.

Thanks for sharing that! Hope you find peace too :>