not enough money to do anything

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i can't even ctb because i can't afford a gun. i can barely afford university and financial aid doesn't really help. i still live at home which is worsening my mental state every day and i can't afford to live anywhere else. i've been looking at jobs for months but i'm either too unqualified, the job conflicts with school, or i just don't get the job. i simply don't have time to write all these fucking essays for scholarships that i'll never even end up getting.

my best bet is dropping out of university to work and get the money for a gun, but university is the only thing that's currently bringing me any amount of joy. i hate that i have to be even MORE miserable to end my further suffering. i hate being poor, this isn't fair.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Hopefully you can find some boring lacklusterjob that just pays you for being there. Like a receptionist at a tourist welcoming center that no one ever visits. Even if it's minimum wage, at least you can still study while you're at work.