Not brave enough to do it

[museumofthunder]

ive been wanting to do it for so long, but im just not brave enough. Im always worried itll go wrong, or that itll be painful. If its not that, its fearing ill regret something later. There is something in me that just wont let go. I dont know why.

How do people do it? How do you do the research, get things ready, actually do it? So many people have done it, why cant i? I desperately wish i could. Maybe im just not ready? But im in so much pain, i just know i cant take this much longer.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it so dreadful how it's so unnecessarily difficult to cease existing on our own terms, it really would be such a relief if there's the option to fall into a peaceful and guaranteed eternal sleep, such a thing would prevent so much unnecessary suffering. I certainly do envy those who are finally at peace from this existence.