Take it as a blessing.
I know you probably don't care, but I do. I care about your life. I love you. You think death is an escape from this life - this life in which you hate so much. It's not. You have surrounded yourself with other people who feel this way for support. But you have failed to realize that, by doing so, you have pushed yourself farther into this hopeless mindset. Was that your goal? You have conviced yourself that life can't change, that you will be miserable forever - so it's better to get it done with now. That's not true.
The issue? Life fluctuates, just how your plans changed. Life fluctuates, just how you could survive your attempt. Life fluctuates, just like how I could have never read this post.
I'm not here to judge you, I just want you to truly listen to my word. What has convinced you life wont get better? Your family situation? Do you think you're a failure? Do you think you serve no purpose?
Read all of those again. Do you see what they all have in common?
They can be changed.