Normal People

[FrostedHoax]

I don't get normal people. People who can just live their lives and set out life goals and actually work towards achieving those goals. People who've never and will probably never know what it's like to live every second of your life feeling like an unlovable, worthless leech and wanting nothing more than to fall into a deep, permanent sleep. These people cannot understand what the pure anguish and torture that someone with a psyche that actively works against them goes through because they have never and will never go through it themselves. I don't trust these people because they haven't suffered enough to understand me and my reasons for thinking and acting the way I do, as horrible as that sounds. Can anyone relate to this?

 

[tams]

I can relate, but realistically, think about what you just said. How would you possibly know what these "normal" people are going through, or have gone through? Let alone, what they are thinking? Just as they don't know what you have gone through and are feeling, you don't know their demons. I don't doubt that there is not a single person in this world who has felt all these feelings you described at some point in their lives. Not trying to invalidate your post, just trying to show a different perspective.

 

[Riu]

I just want to be normal and able to live my life as a happy person.

 

[FrostedHoax]

I can relate, but realistically, think about what you just said. How would you possibly know what these "normal" people are going through, or have gone through? Let alone, what they are thinking? Just as they don't know what you have gone through and are feeling, you don't know their demons. I don't doubt that there is not a single person in this world who has felt all these feelings you described at some point in their lives. Not trying to invalidate your post, just trying to show a different perspective.

You're right. I may have been a little harsh in my description of these people and neglected to address that even people who, on the surface, may seem as happy and carefree as can be also have their own problems and issues that they're dealing with. I guess what I was trying to say is that I see these "normal" people as so far removed from myself that I can't possibly fully relate to them and the way they go about living their lives. That is not to say that these people may not also be suffering in their own way but because they haven't fallen so far as to seriously consider suicide, they could never possibly truly understand the way I see life and how I go about living my life or choosing not to live it.

 

[RedDoor]

Tell me about, its one of the things i mostly think about nowadays. For me these high ambitions have no point. I mean like even if you get lots of money and marry the most beautiful person , you are bound to eventually fall into misery again, simply because nothing is ever enough.

Your still the same whether you like it or not..

 

[StruggleWithin]

I don't think my Ex really ever understood my struggle with severe depression and suicide ideation. I think my attempt opened her eyes to know it was serious. But I feel that she still bailed and did not follow through with the whole "...in sickness and in health until death..." Vow. So I kinda agree that "normal" people that have not dealt with "our" issues just don't get it. However even without fully understanding that is no excuse for a lack of empathy and kindness.

 

[FuneralCry]

I personally could never understand how anyone cannot be suicidal in a world like this where there is unlimited potential to suffer, life really is something so futile and unnecessary that leads to nothing apart from our inevitable decay from age. Most humans just seem to be going around in circles, repeating the same tasks again and again in an endless loop leading to nothing and nowhere.

But I think it's true that after all as humans we all experience life differently and it's impossible for people to really understand how we experience life unless they are in a similar situation. I personally cannot stand people who invalidate the suffering of others and are anti suicide, they don't accept suicide as being a valid option even know they cannot experience life in the same way as other people. To me these people are so incredibly insensitive as they won't even try to understand, it's best to just avoid them.

 

[CloudyNight]

Tell me about, its one of the things i mostly think about nowadays. For me these high ambitions have no point. I mean like even if you get lots of money and marry the most beautiful person , you are bound to eventually fall into misery again, simply because nothing is ever enough.

Your still the same whether you like it or not..

I know what you mean I looked at life like that to for awhile why date why live if eventually they are going to break up with me why try if im just going to die I find the small moments like in a relationship it's the memory or in the moment of something nice nothing is long term so you have to live a life that you can find moments of happiness or joy but that's just my perspective on it I guess