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Harrier

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Mar 31, 2026
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This is what it like for me.

Lately I just lie in bed.

When I do go out, I am surrounded by people but all alone.

For the people who know me, I "put on a show".
 
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what a shame she went mad
May 7, 2025
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Relatable bc same. I couldn't bring myself to go outside today even though it's sunny - I don't feel like faking it with people and I guess saving energy bc I have to go out this weekend. It's hard feeling lonely when alone and with others.
 
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Harrier

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Mar 31, 2026
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A few people today asked if I am all right.

I lied.

How can I even answer that question honestly?

I don't think I will ctb soon, but this is the only place I can be honest.
2:33 was me 2 weeks ago.

I was at at a hotel, and though video doesn't show what he is looking at, I see him looking down at the ground when I almost jumped.
 
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what a shame she went mad
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Yeah at least we have this place to be open and not be alone. Whether someone plans to ctb soon, eventually, just had suicidal thoughts, had past attempts… whatever we all at least have thoughts of suicide in common and able to talk freely hear about it. It's nice when you can find music and other types of media to relate too
 
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