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[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

die dei diee i odn'tr watnt anymore i just want things i do'n1t will have meaek tie stpo. make ut stip. please.please.Ill do anything just make it stop, i don't deserve this make it sotps i jsut want the pain to stop please please pelase PELASE PELASE EPLASE SAPLEPALFEFELFPLFEPFAEFOEFNOAENAENLAEANLENLEAAEN

the pain hurts it jsut makes everything worse make it stop. I just want to have love and no i don't have and i don't feel love only bad things i only feel bad things and everyone says it's my fault I'm hteh one that makes me sad all my fauly all my fault blame guilt blame guilt just make it stop please just let me go...

why can't i feel good? i'm supposed to feel good why can't i? the only time i feel good is when i literally force my body to feel good via cumming, and even then it's so, so, so faint, like a whisper, and it goes away, an d i feel bad agaqin. it's all bad, all bad, people love me, people literally do things for me, i just, i just do'nt feel anythign. what is even happening.

I'm just pinching myself on my most sensitive regions, hoping to get the attention away from this madness. I feel like biting my hand, pulling my hairs out, feel hte pain i can control. I'm just a goddamned beast, feeding off others, never satisfied, angry, aggressive. No wonder people don't want to do anything with me. I'm just a pronblem.

All I feel is negative things. Good things are so fleeting it doesn't even matter anymore. Any high lasts less than a second. Where...where do things get better? Please, I don't want to CTB but life is so hard, and I want to be a good person, I just want to be validated, and yet, it is never enough.

never enough

never enough

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it will never be enough to make me happy. nothing will.


UPDATE: Never mind I got better. But if you wanna question my madness, feel free to.

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

Never mind again, my uncle was watching that trashy temptation show which glorifies money and greed and now I'm angry cause he called the one person with integrity "dumb". This world's fucked.

 

[telekon]

My uncles are worse. I would piss on their graves but they would probably outlive me sigh

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

Fuck it doesn't matter it's happening again AAGIAIN twice in the same day I WANT TO FUCKING DIE IANFIOEA`NFIANFGIOUPGHBSEUIPGBASEUITH QW#TUI(PW$t89 0

I just want it to stop, I'll do anything, please, please why, why, why does it have to happen what did i DO to deserve this makeit sotp"! MAJKE IT STOP TWO JKN A ROW IS TOO MWWUUCH!!!!

please, I'll be a good boy, I'll obey you, I'll do wahtever you want, just please, make this stop spsssssssssssssssssspselase;

mama bear please help me

I can't trust anyone without feeling constantly cheated, misguided and deceived. That is why I'll never feel love. I'll only feel constantly cheated by those I love, because that's what the paranoia tells me, the paranoia passed to me via my family. I hate this. I want to feel love, why can't I do it, why would you make me like this? WHY

 

[gottacheckout]

OK, who broke our mama bear?!?

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

OK, who broke our mama bear?!?

Nobody, dear. It's just...it happens from time to time. Dunno if it's PTSD, BPD or just plain old panic attacks, but they happen and it sucks. But now mama bear is okay, just a little tired, dearie.

 

[gottacheckout]

We all have our moments. I wish mine would come out, but no, it stays inside like a cancer eating me bit by bit. I keep hoping that it will consume something like my brainstem or heart to put me out of my misery.

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

We all have our moments. I wish mine would come out, but no, it stays inside like a cancer eating me bit by bit. I keep hoping that it will consume something like my brainstem or heart to put me out of my misery.

Oh, honey, I know. Honestly, it's better that they come out when they need to, as much as they hurt, because staying inside is usually worse. But if you ever need someone to be there with you when it happens, mama bear is and always will be available. She knows that pain can be alleviated with someone understanding and reassuring nearby, and mama wants to make sure every cub is accounted for, specially you, honey pot!

 

[nobody_oac]

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]