StrawberryRed
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- Oct 16, 2024
- 80
Over the years no matter what I do I cant find a situation that makes me happy. Ive had a good amount of friends. All I get is constant anxiety of if they like the things I say and if Im actually likeable and how long theyll put up with my moodswings. I hate being around other people for long amounts of time and the stress of conversation tires me out. Ive tries being alone, weeks and months at a time. I get lonley and upset, I feel like a loser.
Ive tried spending all my time on school. I get tired and feel likw im getting nowhere. When I focus on my hobbies I feel stupid and underachieving. Im never as good at my hobbies as I would like to be.
Like this it goes on in every area of my life. Family, money, work. I can never make the right decision every option sucks ass. I want to be happy so bad, being misrable for this long is pathetic. Im desperate for a way to feel happy longterm. I dont know if im just unnatuarly negative or what. It really makes me want to die.
Ive tried spending all my time on school. I get tired and feel likw im getting nowhere. When I focus on my hobbies I feel stupid and underachieving. Im never as good at my hobbies as I would like to be.
Like this it goes on in every area of my life. Family, money, work. I can never make the right decision every option sucks ass. I want to be happy so bad, being misrable for this long is pathetic. Im desperate for a way to feel happy longterm. I dont know if im just unnatuarly negative or what. It really makes me want to die.
