No one understands

[Whole-Ad]

I'm trans. I was in denial for a while, but recently came out to my parents who acknowledged it. I wouldn't say they were positive about it, but definitely weren't negative. However it just feels like they've swept it under the rug and are hoping it will go away. It won't.

I think about it 24/7. I'm currently on a 3 year waiting list just to be seen by the gender clinic. I'm 22 and I just feel like it's going to be too late by the time I get seen by them. Too late as in I will have missed years of my life feeling like shit about myself to the point where I probably won't be here in 3 years. It's getting unbearable.

I have a boyfriend and I don't even love him but wanted to give it a go to see if I could change my mind. I like him as a person but nothing more. My mother wonders why I don't spend more time with him but she doesn't understand that I'm dealing with this trans bullshit all the time. Im not the girlfriend, I don't want to be. I know this whole thing will disappoint my family. Im better off dead.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I don't know where you are from but there is help for trans people. Just Google.
The first that comes up is
www.glaad.org
There are also other trans threads on here and members that you could try talking to them as well.

 

[Regen]

I can only imagine how damn hard it is....

Give yourself a chance to wait until you can finally start your real life. How free it must feel when you can finally be in your own life. Is there another clinic where you can introduce yourself? Is there a community or forum where you can get tips to speed things up? I know someone who had to move to the other side of the globe to admit his homosexuality to himself and then to his family. Maybe you also need more distance from all previous people to finally be able to live yourself. You can't force something that you are not. Maybe it was worth a try, but you are you and not someone else. Look for a partner who really suits you. Who is perhaps still at the very beginning, like you. Or a friend with whom you can endure this long process. Don't give up until you've at least had a taste of real life. It's good that your family at least didn't react negatively. They will learn the rest! And you too.

 

[makethepainstop]

I'm trans. I was in denial for a while, but recently came out to my parents who acknowledged it. I wouldn't say they were positive about it, but definitely weren't negative. However it just feels like they've swept it under the rug and are hoping it will go away. It won't.

I think about it 24/7. I'm currently on a 3 year waiting list just to be seen by the gender clinic. I'm 22 and I just feel like it's going to be too late by the time I get seen by them. Too late as in I will have missed years of my life feeling like shit about myself to the point where I probably won't be here in 3 years. It's getting unbearable.

I have a boyfriend and I don't even love him but wanted to give it a go to see if I could change my mind. I like him as a person but nothing more. My mother wonders why I don't spend more time with him but she doesn't understand that I'm dealing with this trans bullshit all the time. Im not the girlfriend, I don't want to be. I know this whole thing will disappoint my family. Im better off dead.

People who seek sex changes often have difficulties others can imagine. The reason everyone around you wants to avoid the topic, is their fear. Everyone wants you to be sure of what you proposing to do. Understand their concerns, as a sex change isn't reversible. Much love to you, and I hope you can achieve you goals.