Venting No one sees me.

[Arlowantsushi]

For the past two weeks I've ben expressing to people around me (mostly my older sister) that I'm not doing well. I've even gone as far as to tell her about SN and how if i killed myself that's how id do it. yet she still thinks I'm fine.

My mom called yesterday and asked her if I'm doing okay and she said "they're fine, just focused on school and work."

It drives me crazy cuz she's the one that watched me have a full blown mental breakdown two weeks ago.

I think my problem is that when I'm struggling i don't want to make it other peoples problem and i try to act normal. like i still smile and laugh at stuff she says.

BUT IM ACTIVALY TELLING HER IM NOT FINE

I guess actions speak louder then words.

When i kill myself I'm sure shell feel bad and realize what i was saying wasn't a joke.

who knows.

 

[Alpacachino]

Some people don't want to show weakness and look strong.She might be trying to project strength or She might be trying to ignore your problem, hoping that it's just temporary and it'll go away.


Also, some people may mistake us as being melodramatic. So they won't take us seriously....until of course.It's pretty common.