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Misery99

Misery99

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May 12, 2020
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I've been on and off here since 2020...sometimes I felt like everything was going well but then something bad happened and I was still lurking around here. But finally I had hit the rock bottom again and I don't think that I can recover from it this time unless a miracle happens. I feel so hurt and frustrated about everything. Don't know what I did to deserve all this pain. I want to find an easy and accessible way to end this misery. Are there any common household items which I can use to ctb? Without using methods like hanging or drinking any other painful substances. I can't get SN. I do have about 50+ of 5mg Escitalopram pills and 30+ of 40mg Propranolol pills though. Will they be enough? If not please tell me any other ways which you know.
 
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hmnow

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Jul 29, 2025
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I often feel I'm destined to hang. I dream of it and make plans. Picked places. Set up ropes but have not recently any serious attempts

But it feels it will happen som
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

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Jul 9, 2025
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I do have about 50+ of 5mg Escitalopram pills and 30+ of 40mg Propranolol pills though. Will they be enough?
I'm sorry for your situation but nobody dies with such meds. Overdose med is not recommended at all. I wish you peace ❤️

 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I also just wish for a straightforward, guaranteed way to be gone and it always feels so dreadful to me how I cannot just have that as all I want is to never suffer ever again, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I hope you find the relief you search for.
 
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idiotenby

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May 4, 2024
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I've been on and off here since 2020...sometimes I felt like everything was going well but then something bad happened and I was still lurking around here. But finally I had hit the rock bottom again and I don't think that I can recover from it this time unless a miracle happens. I feel so hurt and frustrated about everything. Don't know what I did to deserve all this pain. I want to find an easy and accessible way to end this misery. Are there any common household items which I can use to ctb? Without using methods like hanging or drinking any other painful substances. I can't get SN. I do have about 50+ of 5mg Escitalopram pills and 30+ of 40mg Propranolol pills though. Will they be enough? If not please tell me any other ways which you know.
How do you finally get the courage to go through with it
 
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