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coolcow1289

coolcow1289

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Mar 17, 2026
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Anyone else here have essentially no friends?

I'm not exaggerating. I have one "friend" from high school I'll text on his birthday maybe. Maybe even a phone conversation.

But I don't have anyone else. No social connections. Nobody I could ever call for a favor or a ride into work or something. Nobody I could have watch a pet. Nobody that would ask me to do the same.

How did I get here? Well it's not easy to make friends. I went to college during Covid. Graduated and moved across the country. And I haven't made any. I've tried to attend social events, but it's too taxing in my state. And I don't even enjoy it. I get very very anxious afterwards. I don't have much in common with most people.

I compare this to high school. I had tons of friends. I was friends with everyone. But it's easy in HS. We are all forced to be there. I also wasn't nearly as messed up back then.

So I have nobody. Which will make ending my life easier, I suppose.
 
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PoppyBlack

PoppyBlack

disappearing
Feb 16, 2025
7
Anyone else here have essentially no friends?

I'm not exaggerating. I have one "friend" from high school I'll text on his birthday maybe. Maybe even a phone conversation.

But I don't have anyone else. No social connections. Nobody I could ever call for a favor or a ride into work or something. Nobody I could have watch a pet. Nobody that would ask me to do the same.

How did I get here? Well it's not easy to make friends. I went to college during Covid. Graduated and moved across the country. And I haven't made any. I've tried to attend social events, but it's too taxing in my state. And I don't even enjoy it. I get very very anxious afterwards. I don't have much in common with most people.

I compare this to high school. I had tons of friends. I was friends with everyone. But it's easy in HS. We are all forced to be there. I also wasn't nearly as messed up back then.

So I have nobody. Which will make ending my life easier, I suppose.
Yep! I am away for a couple of weeks and have to say bye to my carefully nurtured plants because I know no one who might look after them. I have felt 'embarrassed' that there is no one who'll be at my funeral. Today I asked for an odd tea at a cafe, just to see if I was existing. Anyway, hello Coolcow.
 
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caramelpudding

caramelpudding

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May 20, 2026
21
I don't have much friends either. I've always struggled to make friends even in HS. I ate lunch alone and hide in bathroom stall for a year. Wish I could give you some advice or make you feel better.

But how are you today?
 
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milkytoast467

Pragmatist
May 19, 2026
10
Anyone else here have essentially no friends?

I'm not exaggerating. I have one "friend" from high school I'll text on his birthday maybe. Maybe even a phone conversation.

But I don't have anyone else. No social connections. Nobody I could ever call for a favor or a ride into work or something. Nobody I could have watch a pet. Nobody that would ask me to do the same.

How did I get here? Well it's not easy to make friends. I went to college during Covid. Graduated and moved across the country. And I haven't made any. I've tried to attend social events, but it's too taxing in my state. And I don't even enjoy it. I get very very anxious afterwards. I don't have much in common with most people.

I compare this to high school. I had tons of friends. I was friends with everyone. But it's easy in HS. We are all forced to be there. I also wasn't nearly as messed up back then.

So I have nobody. Which will make ending my life easier, I suppose.
I'm sorry for you, I know it's quite hard feeling like an outcast socially, perhaps you wouldn't mind if we talk a bit? I'm a bit messed up in my own problems too.
 
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Soumatou

Soumatou

Why Do Birds Fly?
Apr 28, 2026
23
Covid and then becoming adult having extended responsibilities really burned the time away. Hard to keep friendships let alone make new ones.
 
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coolcow1289

coolcow1289

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Mar 17, 2026
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Yep! I am away for a couple of weeks and have to say bye to my carefully nurtured plants because I know no one who might look after them. I have felt 'embarrassed' that there is no one who'll be at my funeral. Today I asked for an odd tea at a cafe, just to see if I was existing. Anyway, hello Coolcow.
Hello poppyblack

What's your favorite plants? I want to get a bunch for my apartment. Maybe draw googly eyes on them!
I don't have much friends either. I've always struggled to make friends even in HS. I ate lunch alone and hide in bathroom stall for a year. Wish I could give you some advice or make you feel better.

But how are you today?
Peaceful day. I put myself in public often - gym or library or coffee shop. Being around people can trick my brain into thinking I'm not alone.

I'm sorry your HS experience was like that. I shouldn't have said it's easy in HS. It isn't for everyone.
 
darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,507
I never had human friends, people only exploited me,
they either want money from me or they want to fuck me
 
itwonttakelong

itwonttakelong

all things must pass away
May 3, 2026
7
I feel similarly. I'm not in complete desperation yet, I'm very lucky that I have my husband, but I'm close. He has friends, a job, and family nearby, and I don't have any of that, so I spend most of my time alone anyways. He leaves to see his family for weeks at a time too. The last time I sat down to have a proper conversation with a friend in person was... four years ago? I've moved to a new country twice since then, so I very genuinely don't know anyone around me. I'm not very good at making friends anyways, I meet people but I can't do much from there.

I'm sorry you're in that situation, it's really lonely and difficult. Even one person can make a world of difference. Other people have offered, but I wouldn't mind chatting either if you ever need someone to reach out to. Glad you had a peaceful day, and I hope tomorrow is too.
 
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SASU-KE

SASU-KE

Anhedonic Warlock
Nov 26, 2025
766
You're pretty similar to me dude. I too have only one single IRL friend. But they're not in my city anymore.
I'm guessing you're an introvert by nature?
 

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