NO CHOICE BUT TO CTB

[Unattainable666]

Well, this may sound a bit extreme, but here goes. I moved over 1600 miles from where I had been living. I had what I thought, according to what I was told (lying by omission by future employer). I was so excited, new place near the beach, new fresh start. Just what I needed. Well, the job is a shit show literally. It's the worst job I've ever had, mirco-management is overwhelming, back biting by other employees to make themselves look better, ADA denied, working in a bullpen with noise all around, a co-worker who listens to every phone conversation I have and reports to the attorney. My stress, anxiety and depression are at its highest. So, here I am broke, unable to move anywhere, can't even find another job, not protected by ADA. So I will ctb. May sound rather radical, but I've lived long enough to know my life will not get better. I've been in pain for a very long time (emotional and mental). I just can't deal with life anymore. The world is not what it used to be. People like me (empath, kind, considerate, loving) are mowed over, disregarded, and quite honestly urged to ctb. I have no family, no friends, I have nothing left. My child is gone - the love of my life. I don't want to leave, quite honestly I still have that slim sliver of hope which is so ridiculous. But I am now at a time in life where I am being forced out (ctb). People in the world are no longer kind and loving, they are heartless, soulless and their goal in life is to eliminate people like me. Well, they've finally won. Good for them. I'll be one soon. I love this site, I love the majority of people on this site. Some I've become close to and I feel so lucky. The mods are awesome in keeping this site going. I'll be leaving soon and will post more as time gets closer.

 

[butterball]

i'm so sorry you're suffering and im so sorry for the loss of your child :( and the work problem you're having only exacerbates matters, when you're ground down it's hard to fight for your rights. do you have a HR dept, if so you are within your right to raise matters with them. <3

 

[Unattainable666]

i'm so sorry you're suffering and im so sorry for the loss of your child :( and the work problem you're having only exacerbates matters, when you're ground down it's hard to fight for your rights. do you have a HR dept, if so you are within your right to raise matters with them. <3

There is an HR but they are a joke they are the ones who denied my ADA, making it possible for the shit to continue. They are worthless and are a major part of the problem as they also kept the truth of what this law firm was really like. They can't keep employees, it's like a revolving door.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you have to go through all this.You don't deserve this.All the efforts you've made to improve should be rewarded. Life is often so unfair.

 

[Raindancer]

I am so sorry the move didn't work out for you. I was hoping since you could be near water and were looking forward to this that it would work out. The job sounds just awful and I can't imagine having to go day after day. You have tried so hard, and made every effort to get things to a better place. I am really sorry it didn't pan out.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really sounds like you've suffered so much, existence certainly is too cruel but anyway I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for, best wishes.

 

[Dayrain]

People like me (empath, kind, considerate, loving) are mowed over, disregarded

as well as systematically chased out of leadership positions since many decades now and that's why we can only find criminals there nowadays.

 

[Unattainable666]

as well as systematically chased out of leadership positions since many decades now and that's why we can only find criminals there nowadays.

Absolutely

as well as systematically chased out of leadership positions since many decades now and that's why we can only find criminals there nowadays.

I've worked for attorneys (where most of our "leadership" comes from in the US) for 30 years and they are the most crooked people I've ever met and the things they get away with are amazing. Currently I work for the "largest personal firm" in the US and they are the so crooked it amazes me.

 

[Dayrain]

I've worked for attorneys (where most of our "leadership" comes from in the US) for 30 years and they are the most crooked people I've ever met and the things they get away with are amazing. Currently I work for the "largest personal firm" in the US and they are the so crooked it amazes me.

Yea, I know the expression "ambulance chasers" is used in the US and this only applies to a certain group, but I think it does illustrate the madness of this profession very well.

 

[Unattainable666]

Yea, I know the expression "ambulance chasers" is used in the US and this only applies to a certain group, but I think it does illustrate the madness of this profession very well.

Absolutely! lol they are the biggest personal injury firm in the US. biggest assholes in the country

 

[Guy_Smiley]

I'm so sorry about your situation and life struggles. Losing a child is maybe the worst thing a person can experience.

Toxic work environments are just horrible. I wish you could find another job at a company/firm where you would be treated with decency and respect. I wish you peace in whatever you choose to do

 

[Unattainable666]

I'm so sorry about your situation and life struggles. Losing a child is maybe the worst thing a person can experience.

Toxic work environments are just horrible. I wish you could find another job at a company/firm where you would be treated with decency and respect. I wish you peace in whatever you choose to do

Thank you so much for your kind words!