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fastFWD

fastFWD

running out of time...
Feb 12, 2019
151
the last good thing I have left in my life may slip away from me at any moment..

what a difference a day can make.

my dog is currently in an emergency veterinarian hospital undergoing pyometra surgery.

the thought of losing her is devastating to me. my whole world is lost without her because she is and has been my world for the last 12 years.

I'm waiting with my fent kit ready to go. if things don't go well I will gather her body and exit this world with some sense of comfort having her still near me before the void of her true absence consumes me.
 
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lunarflower

lunarflower

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Mar 12, 2022
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I hope everything goes well, losing a buddy like that is always heart breaking
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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This existence can certainly be very cruel, and I can imagine that it must be painful being in that situation. If your decision is to leave, then I wish you freedom from all suffering.
 
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emgrl

emgrl

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Aug 6, 2022
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Sending healing thoughts and prayers to you and your pup. ♡
 
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fastFWD

fastFWD

running out of time...
Feb 12, 2019
151
thank you everyone for your support and for the kind words left by some of you <3

it has been a very rough week but my baby girl has pulled through the surgery. the cost was outrageous but compared to the value of my baby's life it was nothing. of course the ER vet wanted 50% up front and i did not like (it made me sad and angry) how euthanasia kept being mentioned as an alternative to surgery...

i've lost my job as i did not want to go to work before my dog had healed up a bit. my company's HR dept did not want to approve a personal leave of absence related to my dog. truly rotten of them but i'll be ok. going to file for unemployment and spend some more quality time with my baby girl.

i'm really happy that i was able to give her some more time. despite not wanting to be here every single day i'll continue to do everything in my power to keep my girl happy and healthy.
 
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leeloosnow

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Aug 28, 2022
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the last good thing I have left in my life may slip away from me at any moment..

what a difference a day can make.

my dog is currently in an emergency veterinarian hospital undergoing pyometra surgery.

the thought of losing her is devastating to me. my whole world is lost without her because she is and has been my world for the last 12 years.

I'm waiting with my fent kit ready to go. if things don't go well I will gather her body and exit this world with some sense of comfort having her still near me before the void of her true absence consumes me.
fkkkk im so sorry ffwd, and to ur sweet puppers.
edit- just saw ur recent reply. thats awful wbt ur employer =/ one reason i hate life feels like nothing for me but miserable people miserable jobs liars pain and loss. at least i know ur cuddlin' the sh1t outta that pups rn that makes me smile :)
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last edit i swear haha. i had some success with pyometra in rats using clavamox. obv diff from dog but had several pyo rats over years. my eperience wwas the quicker i got them on a strong af broad spectrum antibiotic = better outcome, even cases with subsequent hysterotomy, euth, ect. it def helped all rats receiving that asap. some continued years. also had to 'vet shop' a lot because prices so crazy diff, one near me cost 190 for rat hystrecmoy one cost `500.
 
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emgrl

emgrl

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Aug 6, 2022
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thank you everyone for your support and for the kind words left by some of you <3

it has been a very rough week but my baby girl has pulled through the surgery. the cost was outrageous but compared to the value of my baby's life it was nothing. of course the ER vet wanted 50% up front and i did not like (it made me sad and angry) how euthanasia kept being mentioned as an alternative to surgery...

i've lost my job as i did not want to go to work before my dog had healed up a bit. my company's HR dept did not want to approve a personal leave of absence related to my dog. truly rotten of them but i'll be ok. going to file for unemployment and spend some more quality time with my baby girl.

i'm really happy that i was able to give her some more time. despite not wanting to be here every single day i'll continue to do everything in my power to keep my girl happy and healthy.
Your strength is so inspiring, thanks for the update ❤️

Sorry your former employers treated you so poorly, spend all that time spoiling your precious baby!
 
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