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derpycool

derpycool

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Jan 24, 2023
16
Hi I'm a long time lurker, first time poster here.

I am planning to CTB through a heroin overdose. It would be painless and convenient. A part of me would be lying if I were to say that the heroin scene from pulp fiction didn't play a role in this decision. I don't know where I am going to source my heroin from. I am acquainted with a few druggies but none of them inject.

Even if I did have a contact to buy heroin I still wouldn't be able to since I am very irresponsible with my pocket money. I've tried stealing money but my family locks everything up to prevent me from swiping some cash. What I need to do is really get my shit together. I don't know how much longer I will be able to bear this wretched life. I am going to maybe find some kind of employment.

What also sucks is that in my pursuit of heroin I have developed a bit of a drug problem hanging out with the aforementioned druggies. I am only addicted to weed, so not that big of a problem but still a problem. Especially when most of my money ends up spent buying weed.

It doesn't help that most of the users here come from WEIRD (Western, Educated, Industrialized, Rich, Democracies) countries. I live in a developing country. I am just so helpless.
 
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Exiled spirit

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Dec 25, 2019
98
Your situation is similar to mine. I also need money to ctb and live in a developing country.
 
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RUPA

Student
Oct 19, 2022
106
Is heroine not hard to obtain where you are at? Envy ya seriously
 
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Exiled spirit

Member
Dec 25, 2019
98
I'm planning to end my life by jumping off the balcony of a high room located in one of Egypt's 5-stars hotels. Unfortunately, I can't do this right now because I don't have enough money to book a room in this expensive hotel and my parents refused to lend me some money. So, I need to start saving money for one or two years in order to book this expensive room for just one night.
 
derpycool

derpycool

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Jan 24, 2023
16
I'm planning to end my life by jumping off the balcony of a high room located in one of Egypt's 5-stars hotels. Unfortunately, I can't do this right now because I don't have enough money to book a room in this expensive hotel and my parents refused to lend me some money. So, I need to start saving money for one or two years in order to book this expensive room for just one night
I am in the same boat as you. I get pocket money every week and I'll have to wait for many weeks to ctb
 
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Anzhe

Anzhe

Chaotic chaOS
Jan 8, 2023
81
At least you enjoy smoking weed. I can't say that I get great pleasure even from cocaine - with cocaine I'm just more cheerful. I haven't bought cocaine in 2 years. It's great to enjoy something. I envy you. Some people know how to enjoy life. Today in the supermarket I saw adult men who drove cars in the form of large fluffy toys and they butted them like children))
 

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