MrJoker789
Member
- Nov 26, 2025
- 20
I lived for a decade on lowest financial help in my country. I could barely get by. I had to borrow money from my a few family members every month to eat.
I have made a lot of poor decisions though. Not trying to make excuses.
I did buy cigarettes and weed every month still.
Being poor gets expensive
I've gotten so many fines from trains that have just added up, because I needed to travel, but I would rather eat that buy a train ticket
Even when I worked, I was on hourly salary in a supermarket, and I sitll couldn't afford train tickets.
And then ofc the public humiliation of getting fines in the trains wasn't exactly nice either
That's just one example.
Loans taken etc
I definetly did not live responsibly
Even though there's something wrong with me that doesn't make me able to function like normal human beings, I'm not trying to say the way I lived didn't land me in this situation. It certainly did.
But I didn't remain on such a low financial help, that was so low I couldn't afford to live properly, for fun
And only way later I got my disability
And at first it was such a relief with higher income. Still is nice.
But oh boy .. From one moment to another, all the debt collectors came hunting me like a hawk
I live in constant fear of these court appointments and now debt collectors are coming in 2 days to my house
A very nice letter that said stuff like that they come and I pay them showing up. If I don't open up, they will get a locksmith and I will pay the bill.
I have tried cooperating and starting monthly debt payments
But as soon as I start one, another one is required.
I am getting so sick and tired.
But the worst part is just the constant fear of letters and someone just standing in my apartment suddenly
It can happen, since I'm very bad at reading my mail. I have some mental issues regarding this. It would take long time to explain, but I am not always capable of dealing with all this administrive stuff.
I wrote a long letter to place I can reach out regarding this
I let them know the effect they were having on me
I damn near told me they were making me suicidal, but I resisted
I am hoping I can get my debt erased
I have never had the energy to deal with trying it
And I always figured it would probably just get rejected
But I've had it
Just venting :(
I have made a lot of poor decisions though. Not trying to make excuses.
I did buy cigarettes and weed every month still.
Being poor gets expensive
I've gotten so many fines from trains that have just added up, because I needed to travel, but I would rather eat that buy a train ticket
Even when I worked, I was on hourly salary in a supermarket, and I sitll couldn't afford train tickets.
And then ofc the public humiliation of getting fines in the trains wasn't exactly nice either
That's just one example.
Loans taken etc
I definetly did not live responsibly
Even though there's something wrong with me that doesn't make me able to function like normal human beings, I'm not trying to say the way I lived didn't land me in this situation. It certainly did.
But I didn't remain on such a low financial help, that was so low I couldn't afford to live properly, for fun
And only way later I got my disability
And at first it was such a relief with higher income. Still is nice.
But oh boy .. From one moment to another, all the debt collectors came hunting me like a hawk
I live in constant fear of these court appointments and now debt collectors are coming in 2 days to my house
A very nice letter that said stuff like that they come and I pay them showing up. If I don't open up, they will get a locksmith and I will pay the bill.
I have tried cooperating and starting monthly debt payments
But as soon as I start one, another one is required.
I am getting so sick and tired.
But the worst part is just the constant fear of letters and someone just standing in my apartment suddenly
It can happen, since I'm very bad at reading my mail. I have some mental issues regarding this. It would take long time to explain, but I am not always capable of dealing with all this administrive stuff.
I wrote a long letter to place I can reach out regarding this
I let them know the effect they were having on me
I damn near told me they were making me suicidal, but I resisted
I am hoping I can get my debt erased
I have never had the energy to deal with trying it
And I always figured it would probably just get rejected
But I've had it
Just venting :(