Need help

[zzz-]

I dont usually post anything on here but have been on the forum for the last 6 months.
My situation is getting worse and im considering ctb everyday right now.(already have my sn ready) I got a psychotic disorder about 1 year ago and my world just changed totaly. Right now i have paranoia just leaving the house witch make me spend 24/7 in bed isolating myself. I think every1 of my friends and family think all kind of bad things about me and hate me so i cut everybody out my life except my mom and sister but im still not comfortable to be around em and rather spend my time alone. My mom is really sad. Im still pretty sure that she loves me. But i dont know what to do because i say no to everything if i know any other people is coming and this is a huge problem for my family and me. I dont know if i should see these people even when i think they talk bad about me and think all kind of bad things about me, it would be really wird and uncomfortable for me to be around em but if i dont do it i will get more and more distance to my family. What would you have done in this situation? And thanks for reading

 

[LaughingGoat]

I'm sorry to hear you developed a psychotic disorder, but it is good to hear you have been diagnosed so you are aware of it. Paranoia and delusions symptoms can often be effectively treated with correct medication. Are you being seen by a psychiatrist?

 

[zzz-]

I'm sorry to hear you developed a psychotic disorder, but it is good to hear you have been diagnosed so you are aware of it. Paranoia and delusions symptoms can often be effectively treated with correct medication. Are you being seen by a psychiatrist?

Yes im seeing a psychiatrist that says i also might have developed schizophrenia. I have tried alot of different medications too without help. I have no idea what i should do about this other than ctb and that is also really scary

 

[LaughingGoat]

Yes im seeing a psychiatrist that says i also might have developed schizophrenia. I have tried alot of different medications too without help. I have no idea what i should do about this other than ctb and that is also really scary

That's rough, it can take a while to find an effective medication regiment for some people so I would recommend trying new ones if there are ones your psychiatrist still want to try (I would assume there are as 1 year is relatively short from a medical view since some medications take weeks-months of titration to find effective doses and combinations). Of course I empathize that advice probably doesn't sound helpful in dealing with it, worked with many people with schizophrenia so know it's not easily endurable.