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D3M0LITI0N_H3ARTxo

D3M0LITI0N_H3ARTxo

bats are friends
Jun 29, 2025
15
hey everyone! I've known about this forum for a while but only made an account just now so I can get some feedback from people who are actually willing to help instead of just telling me that "suicide is not the answer"

I've been struggling with my mental health and depression for years now, and I attempted a few months back in february via medication. all I want is a way out. I don't see it getting any better for me and I have no plans of actually trying to get better. this may sound selfish but I really can't stand seeing anyone doing worse than I am because I'll just feel worse about myself and like I'm not doing enough to show how badly I'm struggling (hope that made sense lol)

so what brings me here today is a plan I've had. I've been thinking this through for a while now, but I really need a second opinion on this. I plan to ctb on october 8th of this year, but I'm not sure about what method would be the quickest/best way to go. I have a few in mind that may be in the cards for me.

1. drowning
there's a bridge not too far from my house with a river. I could always jump off of it, but I don't know if it's my best bet. I'm not sure how deep it is so maybe I should check that first before actually doing it but it's worth a shot maybe. I'm also scared of lingering side effects in case I do survive, so i would also like information about that if possible.

2. slitting my wrist
I know that this one is really risky but I have a surgical blade that is completely unused (I have two but the other one is already dull from how much I've been cutting myself with it) and I'm confident it may work. my wrists are pretty skinny, and if I just press hard enough I could hit the major artery and bleed out. if anyone needs pictures of my wrist + the blade i can probably help.

3. medication again
this one probably won't work as I don't have anything strong enough that will finish the job fast but I'd still like an opinion on it. problem is I'd have to steal my dad's meds and i would feel terrible doing that.

4. hanging
I'm working this summer so I'd have the money to buy a rope and find a tree somewhere in the forest to do it or something, but I know this one is also risky and really painful if not done correctly. I'd like information on how to do it correctly if any of you think this is my best bet


okay that's it! thank you for reading this all the way through if you did <3
 
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gottacheckout

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May 20, 2025
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Of the four options I think hanging has the best chance of success. Full suspension hanging isn't that painful based on reports of people who weren't successful. If done properly you will pass out from lack of blood being to the brain. That is the goal, not trying to cut off air supply
 
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D3M0LITI0N_H3ARTxo

bats are friends
Jun 29, 2025
15
Of the four options I think hanging has the best chance of success. Full suspension hanging isn't that painful based on reports of people who weren't successful. If done properly you will pass out from lack of blood being to the brain. That is the goal, not trying to cut off air supply
thank you!
 
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Wolf Girl

Wolf Girl

"This place made me feel worthless"
Jun 12, 2024
544
Full suspension hanging is your best bet. Check the stickied "suicide resources" thread on this forum for the link to the hanging thread. Don't cut your wrists because you will likely live but might end up disabled from the damage (imagine failing suicide and losing the use of your hands at the same time).
 
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locked*n*loaded

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Apr 15, 2022
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I'd pick hanging given only those four choices, but I really don't like it, either.
 
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Ch4in3dcr0w

if u ever see me happy just kill me
Jun 21, 2025
339
Like people said above hanging is going to be the best option if u have good medication to overdose thats also a good option there is a megathread about it here on the forum. Drowning will be the most painfull and least successful method so i will steer away from it, cutting is also quite unreliable and u really need a lot of determination to pull it off from my experience. Anyways good luck on whatever u choose and good luck no matter the outcome 🤗
 
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D3M0LITI0N_H3ARTxo

bats are friends
Jun 29, 2025
15
Like people said above hanging is going to be the best option if u have good medication to overdose thats also a good option there is a megathread about it here on the forum. Drowning will be the most painfull and least successful method so i will steer away from it, cutting is also quite unreliable and u really need a lot of determination to pull it off from my experience. Anyways good luck on whatever u choose and good luck no matter the outcome 🤗
do you have a link to the megathread about medication if you don't mind?
 
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Ch4in3dcr0w

if u ever see me happy just kill me
Jun 21, 2025
339
do you have a link to the megathread about medication if you don't mind?
sorry for the late reply just woke up :(
Much love and good luck 🤗
 
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TBONTB

Wizard
May 31, 2025
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I'd pick hanging given only those four choices, but I really don't like it, either.

Because? I think this is my method, and I'm finding it pretty hard to figure out. Finding an anchor point, tiring to an anchor point, accessing a tree.

But honestly, I have got to find a way out. I feel like if I were a man I'd try inert gas, but there are a lot of mechanics there.
 
JohnRys

JohnRys

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Jul 14, 2025
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1: This is painful and hard and unless you tie your feet down to something heavy just wont work. And again just a bad way to go.
2: Cutting is also quite hard to pull of and despite the media showcasing it does not work all that often. I belive the current number is 3% of cutting attempts end in loss of life, plus if you live the scars will be bad.
3: Just poping random pills most likely wont do anything, unless your dad has a stash of N or something like that this wont work, or if it did, would be a painfull way to go.
4: this is by far most likely to work, do some research on full suspension and read the megathread they will help more then anything here will.
5?: Look into SN, N, Or Inert gasses.
 
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Because? I think this is my method, and I'm finding it pretty hard to figure out. Finding an anchor point, tiring to an anchor point, accessing a tree.

But honestly, I have got to find a way out. I feel like if I were a man I'd try inert gas, but there are a lot of mechanics there.
Because drowning is terrifying, slitting has to hurt like a bitch and is difficult to succeed at, and medication has hit/miss issues all its own. Hanging sucks, too. I don't like any method where one has to suffer until unconsciousness finally occurs, which is what hanging is, imo. I need LIGHTS OUT nearly instaneously and THEN death that follows.
 
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TBONTB

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May 31, 2025
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Because drowning is terrifying, slitting has to hurt like a bitch and is difficult to succeed at, and medication has hit/miss issues all its own. Hanging sucks, too. I don't like any method where one has to suffer until unconsciousness finally occurs, which is what hanging is, imo. I need LIGHTS OUT nearly instaneously and THEN death that follows.
Sure, sure, absolutely. I have a guess
 
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Ariel1

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May 15, 2025
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I don't know how to tie a good knot so I'm not sure I could hang myself, but as I get desperate I start considering all options. Hanging or amitriptyline is what I'm thinking. Ami takes a long time but isn't painful and I'd be unconscious. But hanging is instant. Just have to go to the forest when no one is around and figure out how to climb a tree and tie a knot. But then whoever finds you will be traumatized. Unless you were to call 911 before you do it and say you found someone hanging from a tree and hang up?
 
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