
lofticries
obedear
- Feb 27, 2021
- 1,470
Everyone is different. Nobody is the same. People put off ctb for different reasons and that's fine. Some people don't ever ctb and that's fine as well. It's a personal choice that only you can make. Honestly more than anything I have to stop myself from making plans to ctb. I can be a bit impulsive sometimes which can be dangerous especially with self sabotaging tendencies. So if anything I'm gonna really have to fight to stay in a mindset to stay alive.I always told myself once ____ happens I will finally be able to CTB. But those things have come and gone while I keep coming up with new reasons why I can't do it just yet.
By all means I should have died years ago but I just couldn't do it even when the timing felt right. Maybe it is just me. It is really hard to take that last and final step. Even if you mentally prepared yourself for the moment for years.