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melancholiainme

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Aug 17, 2026
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I still have N from D. I have 4 bottles. I just took a little. It feels so good that I'm really not afraid anymore about drinking a glass of it. Nembutal IS the best way to go. The only thing is the god awful taste. Nothing comes close to it.

Anyways I plan on doing it soon. My neighbour sold the trailer she bought for me and I can't hold down a job, so I'm never getting out of my abusive household.

I plan on doing it in a forest, surrounded by nothing but nature.
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
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I still have N from D. I have 4 bottles. I just took a little. It feels so good that I'm really not afraid anymore about drinking a glass of it. Nembutal IS the best way to go. The only thing is the god awful taste. Nothing comes close to it.

Anyways I plan on doing it soon. My neighbour sold the trailer she bought for me and I can't hold down a job, so I'm never getting out of my abusive household.

I plan on doing it in a forest, surrounded by nothing but nature.
Wow you are lucky.
I wish you lot of luck❤️ and peace in your journey 🫂❤️❤️
 
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Serena 2026

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Jan 15, 2026
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I still have N from D. I have 4 bottles. I just took a little. It feels so good that I'm really not afraid anymore about drinking a glass of it. Nembutal IS the best way to go. The only thing is the god awful taste. Nothing comes close to it.

Anyways I plan on doing it soon. My neighbour sold the trailer she bought for me and I can't hold down a job, so I'm never getting out of my abusive household.

I plan on doing it in a forest, surrounded by nothing but nature.
Hi, my protocol is also "N"—I have four 50 ml bottles... Is it really bad? What does it taste like? I ask because swallowing 200 ml of something awful can't be easy! 🤷🏻‍♀️🤢
 
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losthope1980

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Nov 9, 2025
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I still have N from D. I have 4 bottles. I just took a little. It feels so good that I'm really not afraid anymore about drinking a glass of it. Nembutal IS the best way to go. The only thing is the god awful taste. Nothing comes close to it.

Anyways I plan on doing it soon. My neighbour sold the trailer she bought for me and I can't hold down a job, so I'm never getting out of my abusive household.

I plan on doing it in a forest, surrounded by nothing but nature.
Is your N inyectable form? I was able to get to bottles, but not sure you can drink them
 

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