Jisatsu
黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
- Jan 5, 2025
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People love to throw the word "selfish" around when it comes to suicide, but I don't see it that way at all. I see it as choice ... the same way we defend choice in so many other areas of life. If we fight for bodily autonomy, if we say a person has the right to decide what happens to their body, why does that stop at life and death? Why is my autonomy respected everywhere except when I say I don't want to exist anymore?
I know people will say "but what about your family, your friends, the people you'll leave behind?" And I get it ... ive lost many people in my life to suicide the pain of loss is real its one of the worst pains a human can go through. But at the same time, isn't it selfish to demand that someone stay alive and suffer endlessly just to protect other people from grief? That's not love, that's ownership. That's saying my existence belongs to them, not me.
Suicide, to me, isn't about weakness, it isn't about giving up .... it's about freedom. It's about finally being allowed to put down a burden that has been crushing me for too long. People act like life is some gift, but not everyone experiences it that way. We never chose to be here , that was the choice between your parents. And For some of us, life feels like a punishment, a sentence we never consented to serve. If we never asked to be here in the first place, why can't we decide when to leave?
We respect people who choose to end their suffering in cases of terminal illness. We call it dignity, compassion, mercy. But when the illness is mental, suddenly it becomes selfish, dramatic, or cowardly. The pain is just as real, the suffering just as unbearable....the difference is that people can't see it.
So when I say suicide is freedom, I mean it. It's not about spiting anyone. It's not about running from responsibility. It's about reclaiming control over something that's always been mine...my own life. If we truly believe in freedom, then that freedom should include the right to choose death.
if we truly believe people own their lives, then they must also own their deaths. And maybe for some of us, death isn't tragedy .... it's mercy.
I know people will say "but what about your family, your friends, the people you'll leave behind?" And I get it ... ive lost many people in my life to suicide the pain of loss is real its one of the worst pains a human can go through. But at the same time, isn't it selfish to demand that someone stay alive and suffer endlessly just to protect other people from grief? That's not love, that's ownership. That's saying my existence belongs to them, not me.
Suicide, to me, isn't about weakness, it isn't about giving up .... it's about freedom. It's about finally being allowed to put down a burden that has been crushing me for too long. People act like life is some gift, but not everyone experiences it that way. We never chose to be here , that was the choice between your parents. And For some of us, life feels like a punishment, a sentence we never consented to serve. If we never asked to be here in the first place, why can't we decide when to leave?
We respect people who choose to end their suffering in cases of terminal illness. We call it dignity, compassion, mercy. But when the illness is mental, suddenly it becomes selfish, dramatic, or cowardly. The pain is just as real, the suffering just as unbearable....the difference is that people can't see it.
So when I say suicide is freedom, I mean it. It's not about spiting anyone. It's not about running from responsibility. It's about reclaiming control over something that's always been mine...my own life. If we truly believe in freedom, then that freedom should include the right to choose death.
if we truly believe people own their lives, then they must also own their deaths. And maybe for some of us, death isn't tragedy .... it's mercy.
