Help my symptons are becoming worse and idk what to do

[iCryInMySecretSpot]

i havent been able to leave my bed in 2 days due to severe depression and anhedonia

my body feels SO heavy, my mind feels like it has given up

i tried to go to the bathroom just now, and out of nowhere, my anxiety flared up like crazy. i kept getting scared that someone behind the door would scare me/murder me. this has never happened before. i am a grown man ffs. i peed with the door to the washroom open because i couldnt take the suspense of a closed door. like wtf. i couldnt turn the lights off for the living room cuz i got scared. so fucking weird. my mental health has gotten so fucking bad idk whats happening to me. and i KNEW I WAS SAFE and this is just my brain scaring me, but i still felt terrified/hypervigilant. i cant even describe it.

i had 1 day monday where i was doing good and now im back to this shit.

im tired. idk how i can get better when none of my problems are my fault (homophobia, rape)

anyone experience paranoia out of nowhere? what is that a sympton of?

 

[certified_idiot]

If you can, get professional help. It might not just be psychological, especially if you've tried medication before and it didn't help. Things like hypothyroidism and vitamin D deficiency can cause depression, and some other physical things that I can't remember rn because I'm very tired can cause anxiety.

If you're in a situation that is making things worse, get out if you can (although this is much easier said than done). Try and get a support system, even if it's just online friends. No, this forum doesn't count.

 

[WaffleCat]

I had the exact same thing happen to me. You will absolutely feel better again, just take it easy until you do.