gh0sttx
such a pretty house // such a pretty garden
- Mar 11, 2023
- 18
i wanted to be positive, to change for the better. but i can't help it, im always jealous of my partner (ex?), when she's with friends, when she laughs while talking to them. we talked about it, but i couldn't change. yesterday she gifted me something on steam and i just asked why? she got really sad, she said im always like this, i don't show any emotions. but i felt like i had no reason to have this gift, i understand that she wanted for me to be happy or something i guess. i just can't accept gifts maybe? for that reason she said it would be better if we broke up. rn i live at her's. today i packed my things and wanted to go somewhere, idk where exactly, but im not coming to my town where my mom would always say "find job, you're useless, you don't do anything" (i have a small shop online and it already has 200 reviews, nothing big, but still it gives me some money daily) anyways she wouldn't let me go outside because (her words) "you can do stuff to yourself and you know i know it". so know i don't know what to do. i can't stay here, and i can't go back to my town, i don't want to live, i don't want to go to therapist. i'm not even sure i wanna get better
