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It'sNotLookingGood

It'sNotLookingGood

You know I couldn't last
Mar 1, 2020
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Day 1:
12:00 Metoclopramide (meto) 10mg
18:00 Meto 10mg
19:00 Propranolol 40mg
20:00: Milk of magnesia 20ml

Day 2:
12:00 Start fast
12:00 Meto 10mg
18:00 Meto 10mg
19:00 Water fast
20:30 Propranolol 80mg
21:00 Paracetamol 1500mg
21:15 Meto 30mg
21:15 Milk of magnesia 25ml
21:30 Xanax 3mg
22:00 Propranolol 160mg
22:00 SN 30g dissolved in 60ml water (made twice in case of vomiting and the need for another drink).

Please rate out of 10 and tell me what you'd change or what you're gonna do differently:)
I want advice and the most peaceful reliable death possible so I'm interested to hear what you think I could do differently :)

Thanks friends:)
 
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miguel6565

miguel6565

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Apr 5, 2020
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seems right to me,good luck :heart:
 
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Meretlein

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Is there any reason you are going for 30g? Usually people go for 20-25.
 
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Is there any reason you are going for 30g? Usually people go for 20-25.
I just generally seem to have a naturally high tolerance to all drugs: weed, lsd, alcohol, nicotine, codeine etc. So I thought I'd go just a little higher than the advised 25g.

Also, I know the PPHB used to advise 15g, then 20g, now 25g. So noticing that trend, I feel 30g might not be a bad idea:)

Do you agree @Meretlein?
 
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GrumpyFrog

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Aug 23, 2020
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15/10, the amount of meds you'll take is super extra reliable.

Although I'm not sure there is a point in taking meto that early. As far as I am aware it doesn't have much cumulative effect and will be out of your system within 12 hours. But maybe you just want to see how your body responds to it.
 
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15/10, the amount of meds you'll take is super extra reliable.

Although I'm not sure there is a point in taking meto that early. As far as I am aware it doesn't have much cumulative effect and will be out of your system within 12 hours. But maybe you just want to see how your body responds to it.
The idea behind it is to get my body a little used to the drug, so that when I take the 30mg of meto 45 minutes before the SN, the large dose of meto won't be so much of a shock to my body:)

Good plan? Thank you for your response!:)
 
airboy_a380

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Aug 12, 2020
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Hey I would take more Xanax if it was me. But that's just my opinion.
 
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Hey I would take more Xanax if it was me. But that's just my opinion.
I take xanax regularly, so I will likely be on it during the whole process lol. I just left that out of the write-up, other than the important dose before the SN:)
 
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Aap

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Apr 26, 2020
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While that reasoning may sound sensible, there is zero need, and you are putting yourself at risk from side effects, which can appear with cumulative dosing.
 
airboy_a380

airboy_a380

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Ah ok. I would take at least 20mg. So I fall asleep quick . Good luck.
 
Racon

Racon

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Aug 29, 2020
157
I'm guessing you are taking that much propranolol to try boost absorption of the SN? It's a little much to just prevent tachycardia but less than what I've seen people using it for the absorption effect.
 
It'sNotLookingGood

It'sNotLookingGood

You know I couldn't last
Mar 1, 2020
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I'm guessing you are taking that much propranolol to try boost absorption of the SN? It's a little much to just prevent tachycardia but less than what I've seen people using it for the absorption effect.
I am using to prevent tachycardia discomfort, but also because when the brain receives insufficient oxygen, a message is sent to the heart to increase bloodflow - propranolol blocks this message, thus helping me lose consciousness quicker:)

I am unsure on what the best dose is. I believe Stan recommended 40mg-80mg, the PPHB 800mg. But 800mg seems a lot to stomach and I don't wanna vomit, and I've also seen varied reports about the effectiveness of high doses of propranolol for SN poisoning.
The PPHB originally suggested a propranolol dose of 2g!, then 1g!, then 800mg. Noticing this trend I think taking 80mg and 160mg separately could be a decent choice?
What do you think?
While that reasoning may sound sensible, there is zero need, and you are putting yourself at risk from side effects, which can appear with cumulative dosing.
Do you mean with regards taking the metoclopramide?
 
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BetterInthanOut

Student
Mar 6, 2020
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Day 1:
12:00 Metoclopramide (meto) 10mg
18:00 Meto 10mg
19:00 Propranolol 40mg
20:00: Milk of magnesia 20ml

Day 2:
12:00 Start fast
12:00 Meto 10mg
18:00 Meto 10mg
19:00 Water fast
19:45 Propranolol 80mg
21:00 Paracetamol 1500mg
21:15 Meto 30mg
21:15 Milk of magnesia 25ml
21:30 Xanax 3mg
22:00 Propranolol 160mg
22:00 SN 30g dissolved in 60ml water (made twice in case of vomiting and the need for another drink).

Please rate out of 10 and tell me what you'd change or what you're gonna do differently:)
I want advice and the most peaceful reliable death possible so I'm interested to hear what you think I could do differently :)

Thanks friends:)

Do you have a date set or is this in general? Just wondering :heart:
 
It'sNotLookingGood

It'sNotLookingGood

You know I couldn't last
Mar 1, 2020
213
Do you have a date set or is this in general? Just wondering :heart:
I have family going away in a month or two. Also at Christmas. They're the dates I kinda have in my head.

I feel very depressed and low though, there's a chance I just kill myself one of these days - I do need to sort a few remaining things first though.

EDIT: Also there's a party I wanna go to on the 21st and take a shit ton of MDMA, so I kinda wanna stick around for that even though it gives me bad anxiety.
 
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Racon

Racon

Student
Aug 29, 2020
157
I am using to prevent tachycardia discomfort, but also because when the brain receives insufficient oxygen, a message is sent to the heart to increase bloodflow - propranolol blocks this message, thus helping me lose consciousness quicker:)
Ah, I got it completely mixed up. I'll probably use the same dose as you. I mean isn't 800mg considered an OD? Vomit risk feels far too high.
 
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Ah, I got it completely mixed up. I'll probably use the same dose as you. I mean isn't 800mg considered an OD? Vomit risk feels far too high.
Vomit risk too high - yup that's what I think too.
 

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