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heyilikeicecream

heyilikeicecream

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Jul 2, 2025
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along with the stripes I got a week ago. is there a guide on how to follow along now? currently keeping the two jugs/bottles? in my closet.
also started a water fasting right as it came, so only 3 mins so far
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

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Jul 9, 2025
1,175
Take care with air leakage. I opened mine and I didn't know about air leakage, so I ordered another one and I keep it sealed.
I worry because my bottle was made in april 2025 and I received it last month. We had heatwaves this summer so I hope it won't change SN purity.
I think I'll do tests just before taking it. I've tested my previous bottle with aquarium tests but I don't know how to do these tests properly.
 
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heyilikeicecream

heyilikeicecream

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Jul 2, 2025
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Did u order from bo? Where r u from? How did it pass the customs
i don't really wanna expose my country, but let's say northern europe and it's near germany where i ordered it from ehh idk if you're allowed to say what website
 
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fazzle

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Sep 13, 2025
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It's strange recieving it, my bottle was black and when it arrived a few weeks ago I had the same thoughts lol, what do I do now? I stared at the bottle for literally 3hours just thinking that the exit I've been looking for for years in now in front of me. I could be gone silently withing an hour if I chose to. And I think having that control now is helping me process things a bit. I put mine into a airtight bag, still in the bottle, and hidden in a cupboard. I've not touched it again since, but knowing it's there gives a strange feeling of comfort.
 
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heyilikeicecream

heyilikeicecream

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Jul 2, 2025
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Take care with air leakage. I opened mine and I didn't know about air leakage, so I ordered another one and I keep it sealed.
I worry because my bottle was made in april 2025 and I received it last month. We had heatwaves this summer so I hope it won't change SN purity.
I think I'll do tests just before taking it. I've tested my previous bottle with aquarium tests but I don't know how to do these tests properly.
hm i plan to ctb tonight, when my family is asleep butt i will need to test it first with the stripes hm
It's strange recieving it, my bottle was black and when it arrived a few weeks ago I had the same thoughts lol, what do I do now? I stared at the bottle for literally 3hours just thinking that the exit I've been looking for for years in now in front of me. I could be gone silently withing an hour if I chose to. And I think having that control now is helping me process things a bit. I put mine into a airtight bag, still in the bottle, and hidden in a cupboard. I've not touched it again since, but knowing it's there gives a strange feeling of comfort.
it really is strange! like, hello? this bottle is supposed to save me from all the trouble?
 
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darkizz

darkizz

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Aug 23, 2023
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Uh i think i ordered the same source from the looks of that. Can you tell me if your test comes out positive. I only ordered 1 bottle and don't wanna open it till its time (when ill test it myself - if i receive it). But still would be nice to know if they send out legit stuff.
 
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heyilikeicecream

heyilikeicecream

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Jul 2, 2025
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Uh i think i ordered the same source from the looks of that. Can you tell me if your test comes out positive. I only ordered 1 bottle and don't wanna open it till its time (when ill test it myself - if i receive it). But still would be nice to know if they send out legit stuff.
yesyes let me get all the stuff ready
yesyes let me get all the stuff ready
shit wait i need to do the blood test instead, i don't have that type of water
 
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heyilikeicecream

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Jul 2, 2025
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i think i read something about nitrate also showing same blood test result. maybe you wanna look that up to :)
i will do the blood test and let you know, a pic might come through but obvi blurred unless if you click on it..idk how this website works lol
 
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renold

renold

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May 29, 2024
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along with the stripes I got a week ago. is there a guide on how to follow along now? currently keeping the two jugs/bottles? in my closet.
also started a water fasting right as it came, so only 3 mins so far
where did u order from looking for some please i need it lol
 
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heyilikeicecream

heyilikeicecream

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Jul 2, 2025
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sorry but it's against the rules to disclose where you got the things from..imean does that count the aquarium stripes? I mean idk you can find them at any pet store
 
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Sinful

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Sep 16, 2025
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If you decide to go for it soon - make sure you prepare/test everything properly and allow yourself some time to prepare and reflect on your decision 🙂
 
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heyilikeicecream

heyilikeicecream

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Jul 2, 2025
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i have decided to order the meds that are needed for this, and I will ctb by this weekend.
 
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heyilikeicecream

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Jul 2, 2025
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i have decided to order the meds that are needed for this, and I will ctb by this weekend.
update/question:
i am a little confued when reading the SN bible thread regarding the meds. i just want to order the ones that are the MOST HELPFUL in a situation like this, so i need a bit help on that to figure out the most important and helpful ones. for example, i want to reduce stress/nervous, fast heart rate

i read that most important is dopamine blocker, but mannn all of those meds sounds like a mega overdose..idk maybe i should just mix the SN with in a glass of water and say good night....although idk how much i'm supposed to take? will it be hard to keep it in the stomach? like if I throw up it, but keep it in my motuh and then i swallow again, or will that use a nasty salty burn in the throaT? man i just wanna leave!!!
 
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Traveller12724

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May 14, 2024
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You should read the pph 2025 section of sn in the resources, it's better to be well informed before making any kind of ill prepared attempt because you will only just make yourself sick
 
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darkizz

darkizz

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Aug 23, 2023
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most important is something against throwing up i think. maybe some painkillers, rest is extra.
BUT im not a reliable source so better read up on it again :D
 
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heyilikeicecream

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Jul 2, 2025
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You should read the pph 2025 section of sn in the resources, it's better to be well informed before making any kind of ill prepared attempt because you will only just make yourself sick
thank you, will do
You should read the pph 2025 section of sn in the resources, it's better to be well informed before making any kind of ill prepared attempt because you will only just make yourself sick
sorry, link please? still new XD
 
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Traveller12724

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May 14, 2024
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thank you, will do

sorry, link please? still new XD
 
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heyilikeicecream

heyilikeicecream

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Jul 2, 2025
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update!!:
i just ordered one litre distilled water and a 3ml pipette
everything will arrive either thursday or friday this week yayaay

oh and i decided against ordering any meds, i want it to hurt. plus, i already have a digitial scale

wish me luck you guyss
 
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LoverofAnimals

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Sep 20, 2025
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I wish you the best of luck. May you find the peace you seek and be free 🤗
 
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Falseunderworld

Falseunderworld

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Feb 3, 2023
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Good luck!
 
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